Where Are You?

I do apologize, if I let you down.
I never meant to. I was only trying
To take care of myself.
I was sick of feeling so alone,
Trapped in a world of lies, shadows,
And pain. I needed a way out.
I'm sorry if I let you go. I never meant to.
I just wanted to be okay for once.
But now I'm back. I won't go again,
Even if I'm hurting worse than before,
I'll stay. But where are you?
I promise,  I swear, I never meant to
Harm your soul. I always tried to hold up
Your heart. You said you'd hold up mine.
But where are you?
I'm sorry if I angered you, hurt or betrayed you.
I'll try to be here always and forever.
I'll never take time for myself again.
Do you not see me? I'm back for good.
But where are you?