Metaphysical concepts of fornever

my heart aches
with one thousand
pained and silent whispers
only dreamed of
in the sleepless nights
I begged behind
my false shut eyes
for you to be
my reckless souls
sweet haven
I am craving
what was never mine
could never be
the truth
through all the lies
I never said
I wouldn't try
through useless plights
to wear my heart
on the outside
I wanted to believe
that I could tell you
with my eyes
and silly applications
where you might find
my true confessions
my profession
is a fear of
ticking time bombs
which explode
my mind left to erode
with all the questions
of the what ifs
and unknowns
my emotions
led me down this road
I travel
quite alone
my words
directed at the wind
and those
who could not listen
for I have
only whispered
only dreamed of
in the sleepless nights
that you were here in front of me
instead of only in my mind