Forgotten

she had talked about jumping
off the diving board at school
 
she had thought about cutting
the tags off of her clothes
 
she had spoken about pills
to help her rash disappear
 
she had wondered about the rope
the swing looked like it could break any day
 
 
but it wasn't until her mom
said goodbye
her sister could not
her brother forgot
and her best friend never could
 
that the marks started showing up
on her wrists
 
and she took a few seconds longer
as she crossed the bridge home
 
and she used her allowance
to buy her a couple of colorful capsules
 
and she took the rope from the shed
and hid it in her closet
 
 
to think of a time  
when she wasn't haunted
or reminded
 
to a day
when the sun comes up
but no longer shines
 
and the girl writes a list
of people that would cry
 
but crumples the paper up
and throws it away
blank
 
along with her mind
 
she is alone
in an unforgiving world
 
she decides
 
that it is her turn to say goodbye
to finally be forgiven