My Head is Spinning

I write poems to my domme lover
          - I wash the dishes at home
My lover’s hands play with my body
         - My wife will scratch my back if I ask
My lover wants me to teach her how to tie me up
          - My wife doesn’t understand how I could want that
My lover is delighted when I come
          - If I ask, my wife will help me jerk off, as a labor of …labor
For the first time in my life I have a lover, who is domme. The ultimate sweetness.
          - Guilt drove me to tell all to my wife, how I lied to arrange meetings
          - We have had a lifetime of life together
          - Sometimes we sing together
          - We have been there for each other whenever needed
          - We have a son together
          - I am afraid of being lonely
          - I feel awful that I am so hurting my wife
          - I love her, and she loves me
          - She says “Choose, You Bastard”
 
I don’t know what to do