Him.....

He pushed her hands above her head
and slid violently inside of her.
She cried, she screamed out
because of all the pain endured.
Her nails scratched his back
tears flowed from her eyes
he said "you know you want it, you little bitch"
She quietly tried not to cry
     She WAS only nine.
She didn't know what'd happened
He grabbed her in between her legs.
She begged and pleaded for him to stop
but he said he wanted to see her beg.
Looking right in his eyes
he didn't seem to notice
a strange familiar look to his face
this little girl was his niece.
He realized she was aware..
she knew him..
how could she not, this isn't fair..
it just had to be her dad's twin.
He was her favorite uncle
now she she felt even dirtier than before.
He'd hurt her like this...
now she'd be his little whore.
He pulled hard on her hair
then a scared look rose on his face
he said "you fkng bitch don't ever say a word
or I'll touch your SISTER's special place".
He walked out of the room
I lost it right then and there
I didn't know what to do.
I threw away all my clothes and underwear.
I wanted no reminder of him
but I could smell him all over me
I showered and I scrubbed till I was raw
to this day I still smell him on me.
It's been 20 years
since I saw this man
I still remember it like yesterday
he's yet to be reprimanded
I may never have told anyone
but I'm the person I am today.
I have a beautiful little girl
and no one will hurt her in any way.
I wish I would have told someone
but I can't change the past
I often think about it
the pain will always last.
But I'll do what I can to protect her
and I found out just the other day..
this man I loathe has prostate cancer
how ironic in every way.