Why Does Everyone Leave?

Why is everyone leaving me?
I know perfect is something I'll never be.
I'm honestly trying though.
Everyone seems to want my self esteem low.

I miss you all.
If I had your number, I wouldn't hesitate to call.
You read my messages, but decide to ignore.
Why can't it be like it was before?

We used to talk every single day.
Continued laughing even when we ran out of things to say.
You would taunt me continually.
I'd say I would murder you mentally.

You challenged me to stick to my word.
So, I said you weren't worth traveling across the world.
That was a lie.
Too bad you couldn't see it in my eyes.

I'm with someone, but continue to think of you.
Knowing you is something I wish to undo.
You're not what I want anymore.
But, I care too much to show you to the door.

I don't want to hurt anyone.
So, how can I hold back what I want?
You stopped talking to me and blocked me out.
What is this all about?

What did I do that was so wrong?
All I try to do is belong.
I guess I'm too weird for people to accept.
What did I honestly expect?

Everyone always walks away.
They make promises then betray.
All I wanted was for us to grow.
I thought I was something maybe you could hold.

He's not doing his job anymore.
Better is what I deserve.
Is it selfish to think that way?
I always take back what I say.

I worry too much about everyone else.
I can never think of only myself.
Guess that I'll have to work harder.
No point in letting my problems get larger.