My Dear Light

Dear light outside my window..
WHY DO YOU FLICKER AND DIE
Just when you're the only light in my life.

Why do you get so close, that the curtains catch flame,
Then leave me as cold as before you came
So near the little room, that houses what I am,
To stir up my world and shake the ground on which I stand?!

WHERE ARE YOU NOW?!
Now that I call out for the joy that I can only find in you
No sooner does the lament leave my mouth,
Do you flicker in the distance to remind me that you're still out there, and you're through.

THROUGH being my fire.
THROUGH being my lantern.
You only look to get higher,
By putting me lower on your ladder.

Am I just a rung, my luminescence?
Was I just another for you step on and over?
What am I to you? Darkness?
Did you know with you gone, I could sink no lower?

DID YOU KNOW YOUR LIES WERE MURDER?
You are STONE! Your light was mine!
Your warmth came from my heart!
I'm in this room because I can go no further!

You drained me. And now I don't know where to start,
To pick of the pieces of my broken existence,
Because I'm so destroyed I'm still falling apart.
Yet you feed on misery like its sustenance.  

But now I'm confused about it all, I'm still torn,
Because I let you envelope me in the black of your mind.
So if you ever return, it will be to a fool's open arms,
My dear, dead light.