painful addiction

when you meet someone
who ends up making a deep impact in your life
its hard to forget them
more like impossible
through out the times you are with each other
you fall harder and harder inlove with them
with their silly looks
contagous* laugh
warming smile of sincerity*
kisses that make your senses go wild
next thing you know you in love
love that sticks by their side no matter what
you'll do anything for them

and hopefully wishing they'll do the same

relationships tend to get rocky at points
its rough
and to you its worth the while
jus to see if it will get better
 
days of fighting
nights of giving up
and more days of fighting
only made him want his addiction more
i tried showing love
but addiction takes love away

i thought i could do more for him
but the more i tried
the more he didnt want me
i wanted to see him sober
a sunday morning sober would have been a blessing
i guess i didnt pray hard enough

all i wanted was the old him back
he wanted it to
he saw how much it hurt me watching him change
i didnt know him anymore

but i held on to the one i fell in love with
thinking the old him was somewhere deep inside him self begging to come out
and he was
but addiction wouldnt let him out

i lost someone i couldnt fix
someone i'll never forget


it hurts to let go