I Couldnt Give You what You wanted.

Waking up in the morning
knowing your not here...
I tried to figure what I'd done wrong
but I am no where near...
to be close to finding reason
finding the answer I am needing
to help me move on and feel a little better...
Does that make me greedy?
My eyes opened this morning
and I thought it was all a dream..
That I'd wake up and talk to you
but things weren't how they seem.
I guess I thrived off of you
 the fact I was wanted just consumed me.
I ate that feeling up inside
it made me feel so free.
Once again though, I failed
a habit I just cant seem to shake.
I was so honest with you
and now I realize how you were fake.
You acted like you cared
then you made a quick turn around
things weren't perfect for you
maybe it wasn't "love" you had found.
I'm sorry that I couldn't
just tell you what you wanted to hear...
Because I just don't know what to say
and I don't know how to feel.
        I'm just sad....