Pain

Do you know what it's like to want to end your life?
Do you know how it feels to drag the blade across your wrist?
Do you know what it feels like to write that final note?
I know what all of this feels like
It's like I'm drowning and I can't be saved
It's this never ending cycle of pain
Most people are glad that they're alive
Well I'm furious that I'm here
I don't know how to live
I'm miserable but I know how to fake a smile
This isn't a life I wanna live
Every fucking day I have this depression that's just
Consuming me
I don't understand how people find happiness
Why can't I have that?
Instead I half to find a way to not hurt myself
I half to find a way to get by
While I'm trapped in these thoughts of suicide
I'm losing my will to survive