What Will Tomorrow Bring

Thinking lately about my escape plan, The runaway from this forbidden land, I knew this wasn't the place for me since an early age, Getting into it a little more detailed, The tale I speak of resembles so many others as well, It all began in elementary when everybody was focused on having fun and making friends, But I wasn't so lucky, I would cry and nobody would hug me, From a different place, It was hard, Moving around so much the faces blurred together, Trapped in a corner literally against a brick wall, That was the only time somebody had my back at all, I was forced to watch everybody else have fun, Watching the kids play and run, Nobody would approach me, I was un coached and couldn't perform in this environment, Closing my eyes pretending to find home, That place of comfort and support, A place where I didn't feel alone, But that too didn't exist, I opened my eyes and thought to myself...Is this what it is, Holding on to dreams and the idea moving on to better things, That was my dream, And basketball was my escape, And it will bring me better things, No matter what teachers told me otherwise, It didn't matter who, Because in my heart I knew it wasn't true, Hanging on by my last strand, I helped myself up, I learned young how to become a man, I had the escape route mapped out, All I had to do now was execute, But all this time my confidence was low, I wonder why right... No love was ever shown to me, So it makes sense all I had was hopes and dreams, Everything I witnessed, Everything I seen, Stuck with me all this time, But I don't blame my problems on these things, This story was on repeat everyday of my life, from kindergarten to high school picture my troubled life, They say a torn ligament is worse than a broken bone, A bone can be put back together, But that ligament will be strained for life, Sounds a lot like the mind, Or matters of the heart, Sounds like to me I will never get a fresh start, So where do I begin now, I must build myself up again, I'm not sure where to go and I'm not sure when the struggle will end, But one thing I do know, Is I'm ready to run away, It does not matter where, I know the struggle will follow, But I'm trying my best to avoid trouble tomorrow.

-cj