A Shameless  Erotic Poem of Near Forgotten  Innermost Longing

       
i want to        
see your          
eyes        
while youre          
inside        
feeling me        
feeling you        
i want to        
hear your          
sighs        
while im          
inside you      
feeling you        
feeling me        
even though        
you do not          
yet exist          
here in          
my life        
i ask          
myself        
tonight        
regardless        
in advance        
if thats        
too much        
to long for        
to dream of          
hope and        
pray for          
or to          
realistically        
expect        
or ask        
of anyone        
much less        
the universe        
oh to have        
what so many          
seem to have        
that simple        
natural        
deepest          
connection        
of highest          
tantric union        
divine fusion          
of souls        
intimately          
shared        
between two          
who truly          
love        
as one        
oh what a          
beautiful        
sacred        
gift        
it must be        
to be        
a part        
of such        
a wholesome        
fulfilling love        
as that        
rather than      
always left      
to only      
wonder      
what it must      
feel like      
trying to imagine        
forever        
futilely longing      
in my perpetual    
empty lack    
after all these    
many lonesome    
long gone years    
so fleetingly    
flown by    
of living    
my life all on    
my own alone    
it seems    
my present    
and possibly    
further  unknown    
fate ahead    
from the look    
of things    
at least for now    
might very well    
indefinitely    
remain the    
same    
still all alone    
on my own    
along my    
lonesome    
journey s    
still unfolding        
path ahead  
even now  
as it  
and i    
together now
will both be
soon approaching
and much
too quickly entering
our septuagenarian  
years
still even now
i can already  
see  observe  
sense  feel
and tell
our road wearied  
life worn down  
weakened  
inner spring s  
greatly lessened  
tension  stiffened  
rusty joint s  sockets  
and my foggy  
brain s  sprockets  
as my physical  
and mental body s  
biological energy s
overall being s  
pranic
life force spark s
more frequently failing  
innermost wiring s  
malfunctioning  
plumbing and gears  
which
increasingly seem  
with each  
and every newly  
passing week  
month and year s  
unforeseeable
ongoing
daily unfoldment  
to consistently  
all be  
showing new signs  
as this wondrously  
resilient  
ever mysterious  
temporal body  
and my  
ego mind s illusory  
sense of personal  
identity  
within this being
i once only
thought  
i was
but now
for many years
nay  decades
of my life
have so clearly
transcendently
experientially known
since way back
then
i m not  
here in all  
of this  
as all  
of this  
here in  
my present  
physical being s  
ongoing  
remaining journey s  
mostly unknown  
story  
as it  
and i  
in humble  
silence  
so blessedly  
now continue  
to increasingly  
wind down  
into further  
acceptance  
surrendering  
and fearlessly  
letting go  
to go with  
the highest  
vibrational frequency s flow  
of and to  
wherever  
it may be  
the ineffable  
greatest mystery  
may next  
choose  
to take  
and place  
me
for further
spiritual
growth
or
not
which is
just one other
reason
and meaning
as to why
i still
most often prefer
to refer to
and call
the truly
ineffable
oneness
source of all
that is
the
great
mystery