Midnight Nightmare

And once again
Here I am.  
In bed with sore, red eyes
That are full of restless nights such as this.
Woken by the sound of your voice
And the feeling of your presence.
Jolted into a sitting position  
Drenched in cold sweat and hot tears that burn my eyes.
I look around my dark room rapidly
Only to be let down by the silence of the four walls
Surrounding me, and me alone.
I lay on my back and close my eyes
Then I felt your lips against mine.
I opened my eyes again, to see nothing.
Over come by the memories
How soft and sugary sweet your lips were
And how I always felt the corners of your mouth pull up mid-kiss.
How you scrunched your nose
And squinted your eyes when you giggled.
Then the corners of your mouth would pull up,
And you'd smirk.
Because you knew how I loved your smile.
How your bright eyes
Turned almost a smoky grey
In candle light  
And under pillow and blanket forts.
And how they shimmered like glitter
When kissed by sunlight.
Now I feel the tears coming back.
Followed by the tickle on my finger tips
Of your fishnet stockings  
Being grazed by my hands
As they snaked up your skirt.
And the feeling of your sharp hips
Thrusting forward
When you felt my touch.
Now my face is soaked  
In tears of self pity.
And my nose is filled
With the lingering scent
Of your soft skin.
I feel and remember
All of this at once.
Am I fucking crazy?  
No, no, I heard you.
I felt you.
You were here just now.
I'm not insane.
I just miss you.
Like crazy.