SOFT  DAWN THOUGHTS        

     
serenely i awaken      
     in this silent dawn      
wondering      
     what has become      
of the world      
     i once knew      
my grasp of time      
     has changed somehow      
no structure      
     or routine      
all scaffolding      
     dissolved      
each passing week      
     goes by so slowly      
no regular pattern      
     of things to do      
appointments to keep      
     of places to go      
or people i don't      
     really want to see      
to mark my time      
     to star each square      
my calendar days      
     an empty grid      
not much on t v      
     i care to watch      
anymore      
     nothing at the store      
i crave  or need      
     to fill in this      
hollow i feel      
     in my guts      
my identity so      
     quickly transformed      
free floating it seems      
     without boundary      
or form      
     this jellyfish now      
it seems ive become      
     so soft in my      
head and heart      
     holding my breath      
adrift in the depths     
     of these thoughts      
weightlessly floating around      
     with only one      
destination in mind      
     lost somewhere between      
all sense of reality      
     and daydreams      
as they come      
     and go      
transparent in my      
     gradual withdrawal      
from all else      
     in this world      
my translucent      
     tendrils extend      
waiting to capture      
     and pull to my core      
particles of your      
     nutritional soul      
that suddenly appear      
     in various forms      
in emails and      
     and phone calls      
in letters and cards      
     in the sound      
of your voice      
     over telephone wires      
in the print      
     of your thoughts      
put into words      
     from occasional visits      
either here or there      
     as short and infrequent      
as they are      
     all of these      
little pieces seem      
     to sustain me here      
across this      
     strange limbo      
of distance and time      
     as i continue adrift      
weightlessly afloat      
     without my usual      
boundaries or form      
     until my tendrils      
now fully extended      
     touch and feel      
your living warmth      
     drawing you      
deeply up      
     into my core      
so i can devour        
     your nutritional all      
as my translucent cells      
     now slowly transform          
once more      
     from jellyfish flesh        
back into the    
     feeling  physical    
tingling skin      
     of my displaced    
humanness again    
     where as my      
tendrils gently        
     release their grip      
i find myself      
     so long at last      
no longer needing      
     to hold my breath      
but holding you here      
     in my arms again      
your head against      
     my chest      
i take in one      
     slow  deep breath      
and softly whisper
     as i exhale   
into your
     sleeping
dreaming ear      
     oh yes
oh yes
     oh yes
yes
    yes