Suicidal Symphony

Dizzy.
  Dizzy..
    Dizzy...
 
Sitting there.
Satisfied with yourself.
You're ready.  
Your world swirls around you.
As it comes crashing down.
You laugh.
Struggling to hold yourself up.
Your brain fighting to stay alive.
Flickering eyelids.
Twitching eyes.
Falling into yourself.
Getting lost inside of paradise.
Breaths become shallow.
The world seems to implode.
You cant see.
Filmy eyes opened wide.
Seeing blurs and swirls.
You cant see...
 
What have you done?
 
Realization is setting in.
Adrenaline.
 
Get them up.
Get them out.
Now.
 
You can't stand up straight.
Senses are gone.
Where are you?
What's happening?
All nerves seem to have been jumbled.
You can't get your finger down your throat.
You scream.
You cry.
But you cant hear yourself.
Do you even exist anymore?
Everything is gone.
At least you wont feel anymore pain.
You'll be okay.
You hope.  
Or do you?
 
 
Little do you know,
You're already dead.