No one knows

No one knows the pain I went through
Emotionally, physically, and cyber wise
No one knows what they put me through
From the threats to the beating
From the taunts to the...the...rape
No one knows how much hurt and hate and rage was in my mother's heart when they told her
Told her I was in a hospital
Told her a male raped me
Told her that they beat me
Told her I could no longer have kids
No one knew how I felt that day when they locked me in the car that day with him
No one knew how I felt when they video taped the whole thing
They laughed as I cried as he began to rape me and made me lose my baby
I liked him and I thought he liked me
But it was my fought for being so stupid
So foolish
So unlike me
No one knew how I felt when they abused me
No one knew what it felt like to have them make fun of my breast
To have them poke and tease them with a knife while two others held me down
No one knew the pain and torture I went and lived through
Just those can have a joke and see how much I could live through
But now....now that I have grew and showed my strength
They think I am evil
They think I am a disgrace
So when I finally told them who did those things to me
Who hurt me and who tortured me
Who killed my little Karma
Who killed my poor baby
But when I fight back and say no
When I fight them and say no and when I stab him in his chest
Watch him bleed and bleed so freely but when they looked in my eyes and I looked in theirs
All I could see was my baby
No one knows the pain I went through
No one will believe me when I say these things are true