Mind Games

My eyes swell and tears run down my cheek, my ears can't take no more and my heart is skipping beats, I dream of peace but these pieces don't seem to fit together, I want things to change I want everything to feel better, but what is my purpose as I'm trying to locate my soul, I wish we could communicate how we use to,   I wish, I listened to what I was told, the future behold many blessings to see, promises will be made and some shall be destined for me, I need to slow down, I need to breath, I need to see all the beautiful things that surround me, for most of us the inner battle is greed, and when times are hard most of us need to see before we believe, my thoughts finally release , and the pressure was so much I disappeared fighting eternal disabilities, now all that's left is a shadow, of what I use to be, dealing with a sea of emotions, the troubled ones close their eyes because they can't escape the commotion, family disasters and pictures painted of life after, but reminiscent times of terror haunt innocent eyes and ruin lives causing young kids to despise their parents and continue on with hate inside, don't underestimate your words, they can be another's burden, and you never know how deep the fire burns, sent from somewhere else, I need to find my rightful home, I've been struggling all these years and I've finally found my chosen road, I knew this wouldn't last long for me, we all get cut and we all bleed,   how long might be different for each of us, but believe anybody can be touched, all I was looking for was my purpose then on my path to greatness I got caught in a web of lies, a broken love and a heavenly plus side, but the future never was promised only the moments which made me feel alive, which honestly lasted temporarily, examples are scrambled together by both sides but unfairly, again I take my time to breath I have experienced a lot and this time, I know heaven is waiting for me, so my stress is released and my heart is hitting all beats because my mind is finally free.

-cj