PRAYING FOR MORE  PRAYING FOREVER      

         
     
my baby came down          
to the island today            
just to see me            
so early in            
the morning            
i left my            
door unlocked            
all night long            
just for him            
for i had a            
pretty strong            
inner feeling            
he might be            
coming down      
even earlier      
than i d hoped      
then sure enough      
while still deeply            
sound asleep              
dreaming of him            
he slipped on in            
so quietly            
i didnt hear            
a thing    
until i felt his            
warm  naked body            
slide in            
under the sheets      
and covers            
right up so            
snug and tightly            
against my own            
what a nice surprise            
to wake up to            
as i watched            
and felt him            
rise  before            
the sun arose            
my baby stood there            
in my face            
he throws a mean            
left curve            
had me down            
on my knees            
before i could            
even say good morning        
where only a brief        
suddenly occluded           
good m u u m m p h h        
came out my mouth      
as something wordless      
and so much better      
came into it      
full of hot blooded      
raw  primal pleasure      
then suddenly before      
i even knew it      
i was down      
on my knees            
begging for a taste            
sparking that nerve            
praying for more            
praying forever            
38 years old            
and ive fallen            
in love  again            
soon up on my feet            
sucking his face            
sparking my heart            
praying for more            
praying forever            
my baby hung around  
to be with me  
today              
what a deep            
sweet soul            
to fall into            
we savored            
every moment              
until i felt            
him rise again            
before the              
swollen moon            
had come            
but his mean              
left curve            
went un served            
we just kissed            
and held            
for yet another            
prolonged melt            
then i let him            
go back home            
to the big city            
now im down            
on my knees again            
all on my own            
this time            
thinking of him            
again and again            
begging for a taste            
sparking that nerve            
sucking my heart            
to a higher place            
praying for more            
praying forever                
an elusive forever            
i have thus far      
never known      
before      
still it s hard      
to stave off      
all those old      
fears and self doubts
that     
that elusive forever      
i so long for      
and dream of      
may still not      
come to be      
nor ever play out      
for me here      
with him        
this time around      
yet again      
nor with anyone else      
perhaps ever      
at this point      
in my life s current      
still solo      
too long  lonesome journey      
thus far      
where i can t help      
but worry      
and continue to fear      
that the only forever      
i may come      
to see  live      
and know      
as my predestined fate      
in this lifetime      
may very well be      
only more of this      
feeling      
and being
forever      
alone