figure me out please

 Confusion of love and anger
 Causing me to become a danger
You drive me mad
But at the same time you make me glad
You fill me with a feeling so great
Than turn it around with a powerful hate
 I could kiss you so sweetly
But That would make me a weakling
I love you so much would you get a clue
Every dark thought is filled with you
Clung together in a mixture of lust and pain
Is this really the thinking of someone sane?
Reaching out to touch you I recline my arm 
the feeling to feel your skin gone I remain calm
You turn around as if you knew it was me
 I smile a smile of sadness I bet you can see
“One day I might learn to fully love you” I say
My heart sinks as I turn to walk away