my world

what's the meaning of life
is it something that loves you
or is it someone who loves you

In my world i have only two close friends
who would be there for me
i wish i could live in a happy house
but i don't
not saying i don't love them i do
it's just i don't know myself to know you...

i often dream about my life being happy
but all i know is that i have a stormy cloud over me
some people tell me to be strong but now i can not
i'm crying right now because i know
it's all true...
i don't have any faith for you t.oo..

i often feel like i'm in a dark hole
with nothing around me...
then a light appers and fades away
then it comes back with another light
and fades away again
the next time it comes it comes around me
to pull me away...


with this short story it's all about me
i don't know if i should come out
of the light and shine
or
stay in a deep, dark hole...

i pretand to be happy
but ....
i feel like shit......
i've tried so hard to do the good things
but it's too hard
it's alot easier than it looks
i've lost so much in my life
and i'm gonna miss much more

all i want is to know
who i am....
and
what i need to do
to pull myslf in the light...