Reasoning

The things that are effecting me
Will destroy me eventually
No one can understand this pain
No pills or supplements can contain

In time I am going to black out on my bed
Too much suffering with in my muscles and the nerves in my head
I honestly do not give a damn if anyone reads this or not
This is my life and my story in case anyone forgot

Do not judge a book by it's cover
There is more with in the pages to discover
I'm not the greatest writer and I do not plan on being the best
Too many things to deal with and I never can rest

My work outs at the gym
Slowing the condition down and I appear to be strong and trim
To struggle through each week
My motivation is the friendship, care and love I wish to share and seek

I eat a certain way
What I eat varies from day to day
Sadly I know it is not enough
As the later hours are sometimes very rough

A story is being told so there are no forced rhymes
Been accused of this about a thousand times
When I'm dead I promise I will not write anymore
Several times I have almost died nearly walking through heavens door