My Hell

You always said you'd love me, you said you'd save me, but I was mistaken to take that guarantee 'cause I’m sitting here wanting you back, This is my plea
 
So far off in the distance, Like a fond memory to me you are now. I fall on my knees begging for an epiphany

On my knees I am now, Just thinking how ironic it is that I’m the one made to bow

And I'll stand here forever asking and remembering how it is you did this to me

The memories rush back like an unrelentless flow of black until I’m driven to crack

And break back from these prison walls you have bound me in and now everything is closing in

I scream and push inside this cell but no one hears me because I’m alone in my hell

And no matter how many times I yell I know you’re gone and so I’m moving on

I wake up in the morning alone but that’s okay because I’ve grown to not care

Because when you're gone I know there’s someone out there meant for me who can share their love instead of making me bleed

So I’ll press on with my scars and keep playing this guitar until I’ve forgotten what you even looked like

And then by the time you’re long gone, I'll know it was worth still pushing on

Now I wake up in the morning happy and singing instead of hurting and bleeding

And then I'll see her face and think of all the time I did waste on you and how no longer will I be blue

But the next time I see you I won’t be alone, I’ll be with my love and all you'll do is groan

And then you’ll be the one locked in those dreaded walls and I’ll be the one laughing

You’ll be stuck on the inside on the brink of insanity understanding how you left me so broken and alone with no place to roam

Now I understand how easy it was for you to leave me because now I’m without you and still with a smile on my face and warmth in my heart.