"Us"

It's so hard not to cry
when you, I walk by
I see you and call
on my courage in the halls
so I can go by
with my head held high
my shoulders back and back straight
even though I really hate
to see you with someone else
knowing to them, you're secrets you'll tell
with them you'll spend all your time
like we did when you were mine.
All these memories, I wish I could sell
like you in those jeans that fit so well
Your laughter at my jokes
all the nudges, pinches and pokes
Everything that made it "us"...
it's like it was hit by a bus
at a full-fast speed
just like my need
to hide my face
so I can chase
away those tears
with no fear
of you seeing me like this
all because of a kiss
I can no longer have
or be the reason for your laugh
they took my place
in this unforgiving race
I have nothing left
but the scars and feelings I heft
around with me
that no one can see.
I thought you could
and never would
add even more
and close that door
on our trust
but now I guess
we are no longer
.........."us"...........