mind lost with words

I'm not lost
More confessional to no extent
My heart pounds when I see a person
My insecurities are my strengths thriving to be better
You tell me I'm worthless
I call you foolish
Simple stones with broken bones
A saying I've created
Your words mean nothing
Just a frustration that calls upon you
Jealously I do not fear
I am the one who will tell you the truth
Call me a b
Call me something you will regret  
But dont be surprised okay
Talk all your crap and say these words that may scar me for life
Depressed loud shy girl please
You don't know the half of my life
See what you want
Say what you want
Because I promise I won't ever say or do anything....
I may pray for your survival when you lose everything like I did <3