This Pain~

Can't you see I'm hating me?
Not first level, another degree.
This pain needs to be set free.
I know I need to die, but don't agree.

Pushing through this, day by day.
I'll get through, I'll make my way.
Don't mind me, I'm okay.
My heart is dead, it's ash-grey.

These eyes of mine have come to see
The pains and trials of reality.
This world isn't really... nice to me.
I believe one day I'll know morality.

For now I'll just sit back and mourn.
Only on the inside though, of course.
Through my thoughts, happiness was sworn.
I guess I'll just wait until my euphoria is born...