Do the World a Favor

Move your hands
Before I break off your arms
Do you want to see destruction?
Just push me a little further
With manipulative words
And slamming doors
Then I will destroy any foundation
That you still have firmly planted.

I dare you to threaten suicide
One more fucking time
Before I do the world a favor
And set your bed blazing
You begged me with desperate lies
"If you just stay
I will go into therapy
And turn around my life"
Well I am leaving
So I don't give a fuck if you try.

"You have changed, you were once so sweet."
How can you truly not see that
This "raging bitch" is your masterpiece,
When you tell me I am selfish
And who I can be around
That I am the reason
For the stars falling down?
What the hell do you expect,
Your heavenly wishes to be granted
By my demon damaged heart?

I made excuses for your words
And I defended your apathy
You always loved the dramatics
Making a scene open to everybody's viewing
I hid away from my friends
Because you made me embarrassed
With the fucked up ways you acted
You had me convinced all I'd ever know
Was blood stained sleeves
And crinkled band aid wrappers
Ripped open in a red rush.

Stop acting like this is doesn't involve you
You're spewing toxic bullshit
That has seeped into my skin and
Your removal is the antidote to this poison
Shut up, you are not fucking innocent
Get out of my life already
Before I indulge in homicidal serenity.

Three times you foolishly said
That the abuse is on me-
Why are you still alive?
Didn’t you swear that without me
You would die?