slipping

i have been slipping up
making it believable to everyone.
i'm doing everything correctly,
to people that may really care ha.
i'm beyond what could have been expected
half the time i'm catching my self
drift father and father in.
watching everything in a different way
(creepy) never noitcable shit
befor now.
i know this is make no sense
to anyone, not even myself
left in my twisted unexplainable mind.
Am I  slipping away slowly?
why do i always choose the oposite then right?
Is it because this  life that is exciting or
incredibly dangers
i'm young beautiful so smart and
can have what and normally who i wantt
why the hell i'm I slipping.