silent yet so loud

I sit in silence
Causing self-inflicted razorblade violence
Drugs have made me feel so numb
I feel so dumb
The voices inside my head
Tell me im better off dead
I try to ignore but maybe they're right
Because I don't know how much longer I can fight

I silently scream
To try and wake up from this bad dream
To bad it's reality
Because everyday my reality feels like fantasy
There are so many voices inside my mind
I can see but I feel so blind
I don't know what to do
And the thought that my life is a life seems to feel more and more true