Dear R

Dear R


The sound of hearing your motorbike
Used to make me beam
As I know that you are now back
The thought of you walking past my window
Would make me ecstatic
As I knew that you would tap and say hi
We would talk about our past
Our lives
Speak about everything
We made each other smile and giggle
We could be open to each other and shared our past
You somehow let me drop my barriers down and let you into my heart

I allowed myself to feel, believe that what we shared was something exceptional
Just being with you, let me forget about                  

my

sadness and sorrow


At night we would lay in each other’s arms,
Cling to each other,       and kiss
Kiss ever so passionately
Your touch overpowered me, and all my senses became alive
And more often than not, we would make love
Knowing that I was yours, and I thought
I thought you felt the same
Made me feel completely safe and contented




Now



Those feels have gone
You took it all away
Within a night
You made the choice to be with your ex partner

Now

The sound of your bike
Sends shivers down my spine
As you walk pass my window, I know that chances are you won’t tap and you won’t say hi
Tears fill my eyes
My heart aches
My body trembles
The darkness re-enters and like a mist descending the mountains    
It slowly covers my mind, heart and soul
As I know I won’t be laying with you
I won’t hold your hands
We will not embrace
We will not share,      how can I share my despair with you
You have reopened my wounds,
My heart cannot take much more

 
You told me that you are SORRY,

But it was her that you wanted to be with,   this whole time and have waited
waited for her to get her act together


Are you really SORRY?


How can you be
As you got what you wanted
Her and not me



I will say one thing
At least you had enough respect for what we share and for me
To tell me about her
Do you have enough respect for her to tell her about us???



For what we shared,
I do wish you luck
I do wish you happiness
And I do wish you the best             


My Dear friend R

I will not wait forever,            for   you



Love    V