LINGERING RESENTMENT    ?

       
last nights        
       stormy tides        
have cloaked        
       this open beach        
in countless tons        
       of sargassum        
seaweed        
       yet nary a crab        
or needlefish        
       could be found        
clinging on  
       to it s still living       
organic  
       translucent        
brown filigree  
       stretched out  
here all along  
       all these miles        
and miles  
       of this vast  
open gulf s  
       high tide beach s  
sweeping coastal shorelines  
       here at this point  
in it s seemingly  
       doomed  
natural life journey s  
       silent fate s  
seemingly endless  
       shipwrecked remains        
where only a        
       disgusting profusion        
of lifeless  human        
       trash could be        
found and seen        
       deeply entangled        
and trapped        
       within its beached        
now slowly dying  
       decaying  
yet still  
       ever wondrous  
now washed up  
       stranded  
ecosystem s  
       surprisingly  
revealing realms        
       which made me think        
as i recalled        
       how you too  
not so  
       long ago     
abandoned ship  
       with me  
went stone cold  
       a w o l  
on my ass  
       permanently  
as well  
       as my broken heart        
washed up        
       on this very beach        
where we first met      
       and fell in love        
yet where now        
       with each successive        
wave and tide        
       the cleansing surf        
comes in each        
       night and day        
to wash more        
       and more of        
our once love        
       ever further away        
from my memories        
       but to my        
sudden dismay        
       here just now        
i was once        
       again reminded          
that it s and your  
       painful ghost  
has still not        
       completely gone  
away from me       
       just yet        
for as i took        
       a piss on        
the sand        
       and watched it        
quickly sink in  
       completely  
vanishing  
       from sight      
i immediately        
       recalled your        
symbolically        
       very similar          
sudden        
       disappearance  
completely  
       vanishing     
forever      
       away from me      
in my life    
       now so  
equally  
       forever  
gone  
       leaving me  
all alone  
       here once  
more again  
       short of breath  
to slowly suffocate  
       while breathing  
in the lingering  
       stench  
of your still rotting  
       toxic wake  
in which i can t  
       help but feel  
that i too have  
       somehow  
now myself become  
       more like  
yet less distinguishable  
       from  
all these countless  
       heaping tons        
of washed up  
       sargassum seaweed  
walls of translucent        
       brown filigree  
stretched and strung out  
       from east  
to west  
       here all along  
all these many  
       miles and miles  
of this vast  
       open gulf s  
high tide beach s  
       sweeping coastal  
shoreline s  
       necessary  
life lesson s  
       most vital  
karmically evolving  
       spiritually honing  
wisdom teaching  
        soul sparked  
healing songs  
        of ever ripening  
further  
        growth