Confessions of a Druggy

Her feeling of being broken
The bleeding flows with cutting of skin
Acceptance is in short supply
She'll do anything to fit in

The cuts increase day by day
Popping pills to numb the pain
At 16 all she wants is love
She thinks she's found it in alcohol and drugs

She goes to a party uninvited
In skimpy clothes, gets the boys all excited
Dark eyes watch her from across the room
If she wants it or not, he's taking it soon

As she stands in the kitchen
Throwing up in the sink
Unnoticed he walks in
Slips a pill in her drink

Dazed and confused
She heads for the door
Moments later, blackout
She's just a body on the floor

Carried upstairs
Then thrown on the bed
When she finally comes to
The sheets are all red

Can't remember what happened
The whole night's a blur
Did he really hurt her?
No, that would be absurd

Walking home alone
She looks like shit
Scars show through the makeup
She's looking for her next fix

Meeting up with a dealer
Spending hundreds in cash
Decides to use it later
Or she'll never find her way back

An hour later she's on the bathroom floor
The needle still sits in her skin
Never been this strung out before
The door is locked, so no one comes in

Paraphernalia scattered around the room
The drugs hidden in various places
Tripping out of her mind, she watches the moon
Closes her eyes, paranoid of imaginary faces

Hallucinations from hell
She can't tell what's real
Cutting deeper and deeper
She just wants to feel

Holding the gun to her head
Hesitates with her finger
Remembering her life
She pulls the trigger

Blood sprays the walls
Her mother screams
Now no one sees her
Only in dreams