i can not say how long

i can not say how long ago
or where or when it was
i last thought of you
i only know that losing you
has taken time to mend
the pain of all the wounds
i suffered from your loss
all the nights i lost sleep
over you have taken a toll on me

i can not say i'll never love again
or how or when i will find a new love
i think the risk is still too
long in coming as is my growth
in knowing i am a woman now
for i have loved and came up
empty handed now to carry the burden
of learning to live without you, dear one