Submissions by zionhealme (monster.ME)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
1st Aug 2010 8:57am
1st Aug 2010 8:57am
Noose.
when it all melts and falls away,
when i cant take it and i break,
its okay,
because i'm done being fake.
when i drink my way to happiness,
when i cant open my mouth to tell the truth,
its okay, everyone expects this,
its become my noose.
when i cant take it and i break,
its okay,
because i'm done being fake.
when i drink my way to happiness,
when i cant open my mouth to tell the truth,
its okay, everyone expects this,
its become my noose.
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SELF POEM
Published
17th Jul 2010 10:23pm
17th Jul 2010 10:23pm
My Daily Prayer.
God, stop my heart
stop my brain
stop my lungs
end my pain.
God, close my eyes
shut my ears
sew my mouth
bear my fears.
God, tie my hands
cut my arms
bruise my legs
I hate myself, you already know.
None of this can mend.
Please, make it end.
stop my brain
stop my lungs
end my pain.
God, close my eyes
shut my ears
sew my mouth
bear my fears.
God, tie my hands
cut my arms
bruise my legs
I hate myself, you already know.
None of this can mend.
Please, make it end.
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ANGER POEM
Published
4th Jul 2010 00:38am
4th Jul 2010 00:38am
Freak in the Gallows
When is it my turn to be me. Round and round
i go so carefree. Shoot me now and i can tell you
other ways to end my life and this face. My bones
ache from the sorrow, my heart and soul
shattered and hollow. Blood flows through my
veins but still nobody knows... should i tell? And
get sent to hell? Or wait it out in the shadows with
my head in the gallows. Never moving, always
fooling. Everything and everyone is blind
because they only look for the key to unbind this
devil I see. My eyes choke as the wind portrays what
I took in those lonely...
i go so carefree. Shoot me now and i can tell you
other ways to end my life and this face. My bones
ache from the sorrow, my heart and soul
shattered and hollow. Blood flows through my
veins but still nobody knows... should i tell? And
get sent to hell? Or wait it out in the shadows with
my head in the gallows. Never moving, always
fooling. Everything and everyone is blind
because they only look for the key to unbind this
devil I see. My eyes choke as the wind portrays what
I took in those lonely...
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DARK POEM
Published
14th Jun 2010 2:41am
14th Jun 2010 2:41am
Not Much Time.
still breathing.
not for long.
this pain is searing.
it's all i know.
not for long.
this pain is searing.
it's all i know.
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ANGER POEM
Published
5th Apr 2010 6:20am
5th Apr 2010 6:20am
Bang...
Her life is up in flames.
Who the fuck is to blame?
Is it her parents? Her sisters and brothers?
Or is the way she feels in the hands of another?
She smiles all the time with wet red eyes.
Her thoughts fall on her own demise.
People push her and shove her.
Thoughts sway back and forth with each blow. Now shes sure.
Now she knows she wants to go.
Who the fuck gives a care anyway you know?
At night the movie plays in her mind.
I feel she's stuck in her sinful bind.
She needs to stay, she cant leave...
The fucking devil won't let her breathe!...
Who the fuck is to blame?
Is it her parents? Her sisters and brothers?
Or is the way she feels in the hands of another?
She smiles all the time with wet red eyes.
Her thoughts fall on her own demise.
People push her and shove her.
Thoughts sway back and forth with each blow. Now shes sure.
Now she knows she wants to go.
Who the fuck gives a care anyway you know?
At night the movie plays in her mind.
I feel she's stuck in her sinful bind.
She needs to stay, she cant leave...
The fucking devil won't let her breathe!...
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SELF POEM
Published
5th Apr 2010 6:11am
5th Apr 2010 6:11am
Daily Dose of Dread
I'll be alright because im always looking up.
No matter how bad my life might end up.
If everyone knows how crazy I am they wont ever give a damn.
If only they knew what goes on in my head.
Oh boy they'd wish I was dead.
The smiles I smile are so fake. Every single one.
For me its easy as cake.
It surprises even me, its so hard to believe.
Because all that goes on is scream after scream.
Constant yelling in place of my thoughts.
I lied to myself for so long that everything inside me rots.
Am I really so weak that I wont change anything?
I...
No matter how bad my life might end up.
If everyone knows how crazy I am they wont ever give a damn.
If only they knew what goes on in my head.
Oh boy they'd wish I was dead.
The smiles I smile are so fake. Every single one.
For me its easy as cake.
It surprises even me, its so hard to believe.
Because all that goes on is scream after scream.
Constant yelling in place of my thoughts.
I lied to myself for so long that everything inside me rots.
Am I really so weak that I wont change anything?
I...
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DARK POEM
Published
3rd Feb 2010 7:37am
3rd Feb 2010 7:37am
Sunk.
Leave me now.
I can't begin to tell you how.
Soul, I give you permission to fly away.
I know it's killing you to stay.
The painful days keep coming.
It's getting hard to keep running.
Terrified of what's to come.
Will I ever, for once in my life, be enough?
The Earth is crumbling under my feet.
There's no more ways to cheat.
Devil, I'm tired of running, catch up to me.
I'll go without a fight, try it, you'll see.
Kill me from behind, let the blood run down my back.
Quickly before God tries to get my life back on track.
I want to...
I can't begin to tell you how.
Soul, I give you permission to fly away.
I know it's killing you to stay.
The painful days keep coming.
It's getting hard to keep running.
Terrified of what's to come.
Will I ever, for once in my life, be enough?
The Earth is crumbling under my feet.
There's no more ways to cheat.
Devil, I'm tired of running, catch up to me.
I'll go without a fight, try it, you'll see.
Kill me from behind, let the blood run down my back.
Quickly before God tries to get my life back on track.
I want to...
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SELF POEM
Published
23rd Jan 2010 4:49am
23rd Jan 2010 4:49am
Where has time gone?
Where has time gone?
It seems like only yesterday I was playing on the playground.
Oh how I want those days to return.
For a second chance at my life.
Just one shot to make things turn out differently.
For things to turn out better.
Where has time gone?
It seems like only yesterday i would sit on your lap and watch T.V.
Now I'd be surprised if I said one nice thing to you.
I'm sorry for the attitude.
For the neglect.
All I want is to just say how much I love you.
Because you say it to me.
Where has time gone?
I used to play...
It seems like only yesterday I was playing on the playground.
Oh how I want those days to return.
For a second chance at my life.
Just one shot to make things turn out differently.
For things to turn out better.
Where has time gone?
It seems like only yesterday i would sit on your lap and watch T.V.
Now I'd be surprised if I said one nice thing to you.
I'm sorry for the attitude.
For the neglect.
All I want is to just say how much I love you.
Because you say it to me.
Where has time gone?
I used to play...
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DRUGS POEM
Published
22nd Jan 2010 2:54am
22nd Jan 2010 2:54am
Look Up If You Can.
I thought i was alone in the world.
Now i see that I'm surrounded.
Why is it that we always want what we don't have?
I want nothing more than loneliness.
Thats what i deserve.
Pain.
Misery.
Sadness.
For the rest of my existence.
Payback for what I've done wrong.
Deep down what i really want is to be free.
Free from these thoughts.
To look up and not see stars that have burned out.
But see light trying to reach out to me.
I used to think that suffering was normal.
But its far from the norm.
I want things to look forward too ...
Now i see that I'm surrounded.
Why is it that we always want what we don't have?
I want nothing more than loneliness.
Thats what i deserve.
Pain.
Misery.
Sadness.
For the rest of my existence.
Payback for what I've done wrong.
Deep down what i really want is to be free.
Free from these thoughts.
To look up and not see stars that have burned out.
But see light trying to reach out to me.
I used to think that suffering was normal.
But its far from the norm.
I want things to look forward too ...
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SELF POEM
Published
15th Jan 2010 9:26pm
15th Jan 2010 9:26pm
try and find me
buried deep down in my spirit.
is me.
i search and search with everything i have.
but i only find a lie.
how long can i keep doing this.
writing the lies here, that are written on my heart.
friends try and help.
but they don't know who they're helping.
if i knew who i was.
who i'm supposed to be.
i would tell the world.
but thats impossible because i've never known.
the answer is inside somewhere.
and ill look until i find what i'm looking for.
ME.
is me.
i search and search with everything i have.
but i only find a lie.
how long can i keep doing this.
writing the lies here, that are written on my heart.
friends try and help.
but they don't know who they're helping.
if i knew who i was.
who i'm supposed to be.
i would tell the world.
but thats impossible because i've never known.
the answer is inside somewhere.
and ill look until i find what i'm looking for.
ME.
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DRUGS POEM
Published
15th Jan 2010 3:53am
15th Jan 2010 3:53am
High: Beginning to End.
i cant think straight.
I cant sit up without hunching over because my head feels heavy.
i cant even blink without feeling pain.
nothing i do will change this.
i am going to feel this way for the rest of my life.
or at least it feels that way.
people move and talk and laugh around me but i stay still inside and out.
not thinking.
not moving.
just being.
my soul regrets being put into this body because its a prison.
blood might flow through my veins but hate flows through my heart.
nobody sees what i see because no one is like me.
they...
I cant sit up without hunching over because my head feels heavy.
i cant even blink without feeling pain.
nothing i do will change this.
i am going to feel this way for the rest of my life.
or at least it feels that way.
people move and talk and laugh around me but i stay still inside and out.
not thinking.
not moving.
just being.
my soul regrets being put into this body because its a prison.
blood might flow through my veins but hate flows through my heart.
nobody sees what i see because no one is like me.
they...
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SELF POEM
Published
30th Dec 2009 6:49am
30th Dec 2009 6:49am
Blue Handles
every day i see your face.
what will i do?
will i lie ?
will i try to be something im not?
the choice is obvious.
be yourself.
but what do I do?
tell stories of who im not
and say theyre me.
broken and bruised.
not from you.
but from the person who can hurt me most.
ME.
no other options.
change is no longer in front of me.
that time has past.
scissors with blue handles.
eight strokes.
eight scars.
the story of my life.
what will i do?
will i lie ?
will i try to be something im not?
the choice is obvious.
be yourself.
but what do I do?
tell stories of who im not
and say theyre me.
broken and bruised.
not from you.
but from the person who can hurt me most.
ME.
no other options.
change is no longer in front of me.
that time has past.
scissors with blue handles.
eight strokes.
eight scars.
the story of my life.
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