Submissions by vanillarain
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I'm a rambler and a hobbiest
LOVE POEM
Published
7th May 2014 6:39am
7th May 2014 6:39am
Pencil Tapping (7, May 2014)
Everyday…
Everyday now I think of you;
More and more often,
To think I thought of you,
So much more before.
I guess I can think of you more…
I wish you missed me;
But I've been replaced.
What does it matter?
You weren't even mine for the take.
But do you miss me?
You fed me so much attention,
And I was so happy,
That you looked in my direction.
I yearned for your gaze,
Again,
After so many years.
And I was finally awarded!
But you took it away again,
And I feel the hole again;
The...
Everyday now I think of you;
More and more often,
To think I thought of you,
So much more before.
I guess I can think of you more…
I wish you missed me;
But I've been replaced.
What does it matter?
You weren't even mine for the take.
But do you miss me?
You fed me so much attention,
And I was so happy,
That you looked in my direction.
I yearned for your gaze,
Again,
After so many years.
And I was finally awarded!
But you took it away again,
And I feel the hole again;
The...
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SELF POEM
Published
26th Apr 2014 5:59am
26th Apr 2014 5:59am
Turtle Eggs (10, July 2013)
Why do I continue to hate
My ego,
Myself,
My being,
Along with my person?
I've done nothing wrong,
Yet I resent myself.
Why do I really hate myself?
I've been forgiven of all my wrong.
Especially from those
I've hurt the most,
That meant the most.
Do I really hate myself,
Or do I hate not being what I was?
What do I hate?
Because hate is the strongest feeling I have for this.
My ego,
Myself,
My being,
Along with my person?
I've done nothing wrong,
Yet I resent myself.
Why do I really hate myself?
I've been forgiven of all my wrong.
Especially from those
I've hurt the most,
That meant the most.
Do I really hate myself,
Or do I hate not being what I was?
What do I hate?
Because hate is the strongest feeling I have for this.
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SELF POEM
Published
26th Apr 2014 5:58am
26th Apr 2014 5:58am
Angler (10, July 2013)
I do miss the warmth,
Of pain leaving my body,
With edges just enough.
That's what I need,
That's what I want.
But I can't no more;
Reasons unknown.
Maybe because no one will care.
I want to hurt
Either me or a masked being.
Something needs to feel,
For I feel sorry,
Brought from frustration,
And insecurities.
No misery,
No pain,
Just sorrow and joy.
Feels so odd,
To linger so long.
Am I tired?
I don't know.
Can I move?
I don't know.
Can I speak?
I don't know.
Can I...
Of pain leaving my body,
With edges just enough.
That's what I need,
That's what I want.
But I can't no more;
Reasons unknown.
Maybe because no one will care.
I want to hurt
Either me or a masked being.
Something needs to feel,
For I feel sorry,
Brought from frustration,
And insecurities.
No misery,
No pain,
Just sorrow and joy.
Feels so odd,
To linger so long.
Am I tired?
I don't know.
Can I move?
I don't know.
Can I speak?
I don't know.
Can I...
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LOVE POEM
Published
21st Dec 2013 6:36am
21st Dec 2013 6:36am
Pollen (10, July 2013)
Like a bee comb,
You live within a hole.
One of everything you fill with memories,
Of pain and joy,
For me to carry and cherish.
And now you can as well,
Finally cherish what I have.
You live within a hole.
One of everything you fill with memories,
Of pain and joy,
For me to carry and cherish.
And now you can as well,
Finally cherish what I have.
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LOVE POEM
Published
21st Dec 2013 4:12am
21st Dec 2013 4:12am
Bunny Hills (10, July 2013)
Your words,
Gestures,
Complements upon me,
Break me—
Touch the core of my heart.
For these things I've forgotten about.
Why do I ache every time?
Gestures,
Complements upon me,
Break me—
Touch the core of my heart.
For these things I've forgotten about.
Why do I ache every time?
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SELF POEM
Published
20th Dec 2013 2:36am
20th Dec 2013 2:36am
Pushing Farther (10, July 2013)
The heartache,
I haven't felt forever,
Makes the fire burn dim.
Pain is needed,
To express the deepest of me.
Feeling empty,
Immobilized,
To tired to carry on,
But not dead.
Can't feel the embracement of grim.
How does one miss such?
I do, alas;
To feel the push for death or life.
I haven't felt forever,
Makes the fire burn dim.
Pain is needed,
To express the deepest of me.
Feeling empty,
Immobilized,
To tired to carry on,
But not dead.
Can't feel the embracement of grim.
How does one miss such?
I do, alas;
To feel the push for death or life.
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SELF POEM
Published
20th Dec 2013 2:35am
20th Dec 2013 2:35am
A Poem (3, September 2013)
I want to be happy
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SELF POEM
Published
19th Dec 2013 5:08pm
19th Dec 2013 5:08pm
Octopus Shells (20, Febuary 2013)
I want it to stop.
Please,
Make it stop.
I don't want it;
Just go away.
I don't want to deal;
I don't want to give up.
Why am I the one?
The one that's neglected?
Why me?
Why do I cry now?
Why am I hurt?
Why am I not dying?
Just give up;
I need to give up—
I need to go away.
I need to go away.
Where is away?
Where an I?
Why am I here?
Why can't I give up?
Why do I cry?
Why do I hate?
Got to go,
Need to go.
Getting away,
Away from me.
I suck—
I hate me.
Why me?
Why...
Please,
Make it stop.
I don't want it;
Just go away.
I don't want to deal;
I don't want to give up.
Why am I the one?
The one that's neglected?
Why me?
Why do I cry now?
Why am I hurt?
Why am I not dying?
Just give up;
I need to give up—
I need to go away.
I need to go away.
Where is away?
Where an I?
Why am I here?
Why can't I give up?
Why do I cry?
Why do I hate?
Got to go,
Need to go.
Getting away,
Away from me.
I suck—
I hate me.
Why me?
Why...
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LOVE POEM
Published
19th Dec 2013 5:01pm
19th Dec 2013 5:01pm
There Is No Other (20, December 2012)
Because you're out tonight,
And I'm alone tonight,
I hate you tonight.
But tomorrow I'll be okay.
You're in my thoughts tonight,
As little things pay for you.
I'll hold you close tonight,
In the darkness drowning my thoughts.
I'll kiss you tonight,
But your lips aren't there.
I'll hate you tonight,
As you forget me tonight.
I'll be in your thoughts tonight,
As your dreams rip away my flesh.
Kiss me tonight,
As you pretend I'm by your side.
And I'm alone tonight,
I hate you tonight.
But tomorrow I'll be okay.
You're in my thoughts tonight,
As little things pay for you.
I'll hold you close tonight,
In the darkness drowning my thoughts.
I'll kiss you tonight,
But your lips aren't there.
I'll hate you tonight,
As you forget me tonight.
I'll be in your thoughts tonight,
As your dreams rip away my flesh.
Kiss me tonight,
As you pretend I'm by your side.
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LOVE POEM
Published
1st Jan 2013 3:46pm
1st Jan 2013 3:46pm
We've Cornered Them (23, December 2012)
White and red lights in my dreams;
I wish I was going where they're going.
White and red lights driving away from me;
I wish I was going where they're going.
So pretty;
Watching them fly away from me.
And I cry at night,
Because you aren't mine.
And I cry at night,
Because others want you.
And I cry at night,
Because I'm not good enough for you.
And I cry at night,
Because jealousy kills me.
And I hate myself,
I'm so ugly.
I hate you,
You're so perfect.
I hate myself,
I'm so...
I wish I was going where they're going.
White and red lights driving away from me;
I wish I was going where they're going.
So pretty;
Watching them fly away from me.
And I cry at night,
Because you aren't mine.
And I cry at night,
Because others want you.
And I cry at night,
Because I'm not good enough for you.
And I cry at night,
Because jealousy kills me.
And I hate myself,
I'm so ugly.
I hate you,
You're so perfect.
I hate myself,
I'm so...
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ANGER POEM
Published
22nd Dec 2012 2:54pm
22nd Dec 2012 2:54pm
The Trials Have Started (20, December 2012)
Winter time is the best time.
I hate to be alone this time.
Maybe it's lack of energy,
Sucking the life from me.
Sanity is so precious,
So why can't you be beside me?
Why is there so many obstacles?
Why do I cry every single night?
Why am I so uncomfortable?
Why am I so afraid?
Just kill me,
Just kill me,
Just kill me,
Just end it all fucking ready.
Why am I so uncomfortable,
Drenched in your blood?
Why does this hurt do much?
Where's my skin?
Why can you fucking end yourself?
Cockroaches don't deserve air....
I hate to be alone this time.
Maybe it's lack of energy,
Sucking the life from me.
Sanity is so precious,
So why can't you be beside me?
Why is there so many obstacles?
Why do I cry every single night?
Why am I so uncomfortable?
Why am I so afraid?
Just kill me,
Just kill me,
Just kill me,
Just end it all fucking ready.
Why am I so uncomfortable,
Drenched in your blood?
Why does this hurt do much?
Where's my skin?
Why can you fucking end yourself?
Cockroaches don't deserve air....
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LOVE POEM
Published
22nd Dec 2012 2:49pm
22nd Dec 2012 2:49pm
There's No Other (20, December 2012)
Because you're out tonight,
And I'm all alone tonight.
I hate you tonight,
But tomorrow I'll be okay.
You're in my thoughts tonight,
As little things play for you.
I'll hold me close tonight,
In the darkness drowning my thoughts.
I'll kiss you tonight,
But your lips aren't there,
I'll hate you tonight,
As you forget me tonight.
I'll be in your thoughts tonight,
As your dreams rip away my flesh.
Kiss me tonight,
As you pretend I'm by your side.
And I'm all alone tonight.
I hate you tonight,
But tomorrow I'll be okay.
You're in my thoughts tonight,
As little things play for you.
I'll hold me close tonight,
In the darkness drowning my thoughts.
I'll kiss you tonight,
But your lips aren't there,
I'll hate you tonight,
As you forget me tonight.
I'll be in your thoughts tonight,
As your dreams rip away my flesh.
Kiss me tonight,
As you pretend I'm by your side.
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