Submissions by vanillarain
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I'm a rambler and a hobbiest
SELF POEM
Published
31st Mar 2016 3:39am
31st Mar 2016 3:39am
Not Yet Suicide (25, April 2011)
I feel so alone,
Even when you lay next to me.
When those bad dreams come true,
I'll turn to you.
I've made choices I can't take back,
And I have to live with the memories,
Memories I can't forget.
I was never me to turn back to,
Because of the tricks my mind plays.
And I'm so sick,
Tired of the games.
With all the time in the world,
It's not enough for all that's on my mind.
Even when you lay next to me.
When those bad dreams come true,
I'll turn to you.
I've made choices I can't take back,
And I have to live with the memories,
Memories I can't forget.
I was never me to turn back to,
Because of the tricks my mind plays.
And I'm so sick,
Tired of the games.
With all the time in the world,
It's not enough for all that's on my mind.
450 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
30th Mar 2016 5:37pm
30th Mar 2016 5:37pm
What's the Point? (8, April 2011)
If I were to die,
I wouldn't care.
If I were to hurt you,
I wouldn't care.
If I were to hurt me,
I wouldn't care.
Because you're hurt too.
If I were to die,
I wouldn't care.
I would be the epitome,
Of the suicidal child.
If I were to die,
I wouldn't care.
I'm in dystopia forever,
And I don't care.
If I were to hurt you,
I wouldn't care.
Because you hurt me too.
I wouldn't care.
If I were to hurt you,
I wouldn't care.
If I were to hurt me,
I wouldn't care.
Because you're hurt too.
If I were to die,
I wouldn't care.
I would be the epitome,
Of the suicidal child.
If I were to die,
I wouldn't care.
I'm in dystopia forever,
And I don't care.
If I were to hurt you,
I wouldn't care.
Because you hurt me too.
451 reads
0 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
30th Mar 2016 5:36pm
30th Mar 2016 5:36pm
Santa Clause (30, April 2011 )
Seeing is always believing,
Unless you are only shown lies.
Betrayal seeps through their teeth,
As you rush to save yourself.
With each heartbeat,
Their voices grow louder.
Pulling you back,
You're growing weaker.
You're drowning in their words.
Or are they yours?
And there's never anywhere to hide.
Your mind was your utopia,
But now filled with your hatred;
Hatred for your sorry life.
The only thing you ever knew,
And you can't change that.
Rip at the wallpaper,
Discover a world beyond your walls.
But...
Unless you are only shown lies.
Betrayal seeps through their teeth,
As you rush to save yourself.
With each heartbeat,
Their voices grow louder.
Pulling you back,
You're growing weaker.
You're drowning in their words.
Or are they yours?
And there's never anywhere to hide.
Your mind was your utopia,
But now filled with your hatred;
Hatred for your sorry life.
The only thing you ever knew,
And you can't change that.
Rip at the wallpaper,
Discover a world beyond your walls.
But...
480 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
30th Mar 2016 6:25am
30th Mar 2016 6:25am
Crystal Gem (30 March 2016)
I've forgotten his face,
I've forgotten his smell,
I've forgotten his touch,
I've forgotten the sound of his voice,
And how he use to say my name...
I've forgotten how special he made me feel...
I doubt we'll ever cross paths again...
I wish I was given the chance to be called his...
I've forgotten his smell,
I've forgotten his touch,
I've forgotten the sound of his voice,
And how he use to say my name...
I've forgotten how special he made me feel...
I doubt we'll ever cross paths again...
I wish I was given the chance to be called his...
515 reads
0 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
30th Mar 2016 6:20am
30th Mar 2016 6:20am
Alright As They'll Ever Be (24, March 2016)
When things get real bad,
I'll try to fix it,
I promise I will always try.
But when things become hopeless,
I'll just want to die.
When things get really bad,
I'm sorry that I shut down.
Please don't worry too much,
It has nothing to do with you.
Just show me that you care,
And I'll make it through.
I haven't felt down in a long time,
I thought I've beat the war in my head.
I'm not second thinking anything,
I'm just worrying over nothing.
But don't worry,
You've become my sunshine.
Without even trying,
I know I...
I'll try to fix it,
I promise I will always try.
But when things become hopeless,
I'll just want to die.
When things get really bad,
I'm sorry that I shut down.
Please don't worry too much,
It has nothing to do with you.
Just show me that you care,
And I'll make it through.
I haven't felt down in a long time,
I thought I've beat the war in my head.
I'm not second thinking anything,
I'm just worrying over nothing.
But don't worry,
You've become my sunshine.
Without even trying,
I know I...
488 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
18th Jan 2016 6:10pm
18th Jan 2016 6:10pm
On Fire (6, May 2011)
So tired,
So slow,
Don't care where I go.
Go find me a home,
And stay there forever.
Locked behind those doors,
Waiting for the walls to close in.
A gory mess I will be,
Thanks to these walls that talk to me.
So slow,
Don't care where I go.
Go find me a home,
And stay there forever.
Locked behind those doors,
Waiting for the walls to close in.
A gory mess I will be,
Thanks to these walls that talk to me.
482 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
18th Jan 2016 6:07pm
18th Jan 2016 6:07pm
Passion of Genocide (16, May 2011)
Songs about the living,
Songs about the dead,
Songs about the love we had.
I rather be dead,
I rather be dead,
I rather be dead.
I'm already dead,
In my private tomb in my head.
I'm afraid to die alone,
So can I take you with me?
I rather be dead,
I rather be dead,
I rather be dead.
I'm already dead,
In my private tomb in my head.
I'm too dumb to think.
Repetition is my life,
And I got nowhere to go.
I rather be dead,
I rather be dead,
I rather be dead.
I'm already dead,
In my private...
Songs about the dead,
Songs about the love we had.
I rather be dead,
I rather be dead,
I rather be dead.
I'm already dead,
In my private tomb in my head.
I'm afraid to die alone,
So can I take you with me?
I rather be dead,
I rather be dead,
I rather be dead.
I'm already dead,
In my private tomb in my head.
I'm too dumb to think.
Repetition is my life,
And I got nowhere to go.
I rather be dead,
I rather be dead,
I rather be dead.
I'm already dead,
In my private...
429 reads
0 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
4th Jul 2015 9:22am
4th Jul 2015 9:22am
North Star (4, July 2015)
Constantly occupying my thoughts,
Invading my dreams;
Not a moment goes by where I'm not day dreaming about you.
You've opened me up;
Vulnerable and fragile,
And left me in the cold.
I feel broken and alone,
Right when I thought I was saved from myself.
You've inspired me,
You've encouraged me,
You've made me want to finally be me.
And that all went away when you went away...
I built trust in you sooner then I should have...
You didn't aim to hurt me,
I know that must be true,
But you disappeared without a word,
And I can't help...
Invading my dreams;
Not a moment goes by where I'm not day dreaming about you.
You've opened me up;
Vulnerable and fragile,
And left me in the cold.
I feel broken and alone,
Right when I thought I was saved from myself.
You've inspired me,
You've encouraged me,
You've made me want to finally be me.
And that all went away when you went away...
I built trust in you sooner then I should have...
You didn't aim to hurt me,
I know that must be true,
But you disappeared without a word,
And I can't help...
614 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
7th Jun 2015 4:58am
7th Jun 2015 4:58am
Rabbit Hole (18, May 2011)
Run and hide,
On my mind.
Run and hide,
To survive.
All my thoughts,
Just run and hide.
How much time befor we die?
On my mind.
Run and hide,
To survive.
All my thoughts,
Just run and hide.
How much time befor we die?
495 reads
1 Comment
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
7th Jun 2015 4:54am
7th Jun 2015 4:54am
2020 (27, May 2011)
Everything is so blurry,
Mind so cluttered.
Words out of focus,
Nothing to say anymore.
What else can be said,
In this loss society?
With all the inane people,
With test dummy lives.
Mind so cluttered.
Words out of focus,
Nothing to say anymore.
What else can be said,
In this loss society?
With all the inane people,
With test dummy lives.
473 reads
0 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
7th May 2015 4:32pm
7th May 2015 4:32pm
Population Isolated (30, May 2011)
It gets harder to tell,
What I said a moment ago.
Against the wall,
This black hole eats me whole.
Fall over myself,
Swallow my heart.
A hint of cancer.
Slit my throat,
I bleed of grey.
Nothing's real,
No matter how I pray.
What I said a moment ago.
Against the wall,
This black hole eats me whole.
Fall over myself,
Swallow my heart.
A hint of cancer.
Slit my throat,
I bleed of grey.
Nothing's real,
No matter how I pray.
488 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
7th May 2015 4:30pm
7th May 2015 4:30pm
Ode to Paper~ (10, June 2011)
I'm made of paper,
I'm tacked to the wall.
Window open,
Drag me out.
Bend me,
Crumple me,
I don't care.
I'm made of paper,
And I don't feel.
Torn and scratched.
I once was important,
Now just trash.
I'm tacked to the wall.
Window open,
Drag me out.
Bend me,
Crumple me,
I don't care.
I'm made of paper,
And I don't feel.
Torn and scratched.
I once was important,
Now just trash.
490 reads
0 Comments
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