Submissions by trouble8me
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
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SELF POEM
Published
3rd Apr 2018 5:54am
3rd Apr 2018 5:54am
Pulse
Pulse
There is a pulse
Sometimes I feel it
Sometimes I want to let it go
When I don't feel sorry for myself
I still want to be alone.......
In my own head
It's safer there
Or maybe it's my curse
The lack of knowledge
I have of this
Makes everything much worse
I can ask the questions
And some answers I can see
But the way it feels on the inside
Is a word-less reality
Breathing has no effect
On the hardship of the mind
To devote ones self to rising up
Is...
There is a pulse
Sometimes I feel it
Sometimes I want to let it go
When I don't feel sorry for myself
I still want to be alone.......
In my own head
It's safer there
Or maybe it's my curse
The lack of knowledge
I have of this
Makes everything much worse
I can ask the questions
And some answers I can see
But the way it feels on the inside
Is a word-less reality
Breathing has no effect
On the hardship of the mind
To devote ones self to rising up
Is...
#myself
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SELF POEM
Published
26th Mar 2018 5:51am
26th Mar 2018 5:51am
Lonely
I can tell you what it feels like
But you really don’t want to know
I can dream that it will be alright
As it has continuously grown
Books and advice go on for days
But they don’t tell what is felt
The consistency of it, is evil and stays
On your mind like nothing else.
The day will come and I will choose
Miserable longer? Or freedom and rest?
This is an ending I’ll never wish upon you
I’m trying to do my very best
But you really don’t want to know
I can dream that it will be alright
As it has continuously grown
Books and advice go on for days
But they don’t tell what is felt
The consistency of it, is evil and stays
On your mind like nothing else.
The day will come and I will choose
Miserable longer? Or freedom and rest?
This is an ending I’ll never wish upon you
I’m trying to do my very best
#myself
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SELF POEM
Published
15th Mar 2018 8:39pm
15th Mar 2018 8:39pm
Disease(cancer)
It can be described in the most intricate detail.
You can empathize easily in your head.
It only knows you when it's real.
-A downward spiral until you're dead.
Exposure to the toxins of progress
as well as food we should not eat-
the safety of a long lost time
is gone. We have been beat.
Hindered by the pocket books
of those we have to trust,
sadly, will not be in your favor.
The want is not enough.
NASA puts people out in space
but we can't fix people here at home.
There is a lie with dollar signs. ...
You can empathize easily in your head.
It only knows you when it's real.
-A downward spiral until you're dead.
Exposure to the toxins of progress
as well as food we should not eat-
the safety of a long lost time
is gone. We have been beat.
Hindered by the pocket books
of those we have to trust,
sadly, will not be in your favor.
The want is not enough.
NASA puts people out in space
but we can't fix people here at home.
There is a lie with dollar signs. ...
#myself
402 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
19th Feb 2018 8:01am
19th Feb 2018 8:01am
Chemotherapy
Today they want to poison me.
I have managed to dismiss.
My absence, never intersects with what they say to do.
They press me by way of telephone.
So , I had to change my number.
Why do they administer agony
but never amongst each other?
Last year that growing ugly was cut out of me.
I waited far too long.
Scouring a field so foreign to me.
I've read everything and beyond.
Now they wonder why I put off the treatment.
I wonder why it's the same.
It's been over 20 years since it was my dad.
The drugs have...
I have managed to dismiss.
My absence, never intersects with what they say to do.
They press me by way of telephone.
So , I had to change my number.
Why do they administer agony
but never amongst each other?
Last year that growing ugly was cut out of me.
I waited far too long.
Scouring a field so foreign to me.
I've read everything and beyond.
Now they wonder why I put off the treatment.
I wonder why it's the same.
It's been over 20 years since it was my dad.
The drugs have...
#CallToAction
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SELF POEM
Published
5th Jan 2018 8:25pm
5th Jan 2018 8:25pm
Time
There becomes an anticipation of the finish line,
unlike the aspirations that drove you in life.
When once you felt whole, you did not realize,
until you are told, that you have little time.
Your dreams of the future becoming a reality
become dramatically obscured into a deformity.
What it does in our thoughts is cruel, and remains,
the biggest of monsters controlling the pain.
A happiness finds a miraculous path
when now you prepare for not coming back.
Relieve me , this bad dream, so eternally sad-
I think of what could be,...
unlike the aspirations that drove you in life.
When once you felt whole, you did not realize,
until you are told, that you have little time.
Your dreams of the future becoming a reality
become dramatically obscured into a deformity.
What it does in our thoughts is cruel, and remains,
the biggest of monsters controlling the pain.
A happiness finds a miraculous path
when now you prepare for not coming back.
Relieve me , this bad dream, so eternally sad-
I think of what could be,...
#sadness
#anxiety
#nightmares #fear
#nightmares #fear
585 reads
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
29th Dec 2017 7:10pm
29th Dec 2017 7:10pm
Happy New Year
I hope this year was good to you
your ambitions and successes a smile too!
Wherever you are , don't forget to be happy
Another year down , with a party we're having-
If you are good in your bones , your heart , and your mind
You will be noticed at some point in time
Celebrate for what has yet to come
Celebrate because you are number one
Happy New Year , Happy again
We celebrate this life, my friend
With a toast - a wish for you
Peace and good luck in all you do.
your ambitions and successes a smile too!
Wherever you are , don't forget to be happy
Another year down , with a party we're having-
If you are good in your bones , your heart , and your mind
You will be noticed at some point in time
Celebrate for what has yet to come
Celebrate because you are number one
Happy New Year , Happy again
We celebrate this life, my friend
With a toast - a wish for you
Peace and good luck in all you do.
#memories
#nostalgia
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SELF POEM
Published
29th Dec 2017 6:42pm
29th Dec 2017 6:42pm
Trip
I had been missing
from my self
I had isolated from what I felt
All the mystery -like an impending doom
filled my head - I could not move
So what comes next?
I see them all say-
Do what is best for you today
Tell me when this trip gets easy
because it certainly isn't now.
Tell me what I'm supposed to be feeling
and how to get it out.
I am just wishing
I was someone else
So I could read how the story sells
No one is buying what hasn't been done
I'll be the guinea pig for everyone.
...
from my self
I had isolated from what I felt
All the mystery -like an impending doom
filled my head - I could not move
So what comes next?
I see them all say-
Do what is best for you today
Tell me when this trip gets easy
because it certainly isn't now.
Tell me what I'm supposed to be feeling
and how to get it out.
I am just wishing
I was someone else
So I could read how the story sells
No one is buying what hasn't been done
I'll be the guinea pig for everyone.
...
#FeelingLost
#emotions
433 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
3rd Dec 2017 00:58am
3rd Dec 2017 00:58am
New York
New York
I didn’t go to the “city”
It wasn’t meant to be
But where I was I leave with love
Because I did believe
The distance far
Just a minor distraction
I trusted what I felt
I thought long and hard
And then went packing
Everything went well
Now back at home
I start anew
I know now to recognize
That everything that makes us well
Comes with compromise
(Went to New York from California for cancer surgery)
I didn’t go to the “city”
It wasn’t meant to be
But where I was I leave with love
Because I did believe
The distance far
Just a minor distraction
I trusted what I felt
I thought long and hard
And then went packing
Everything went well
Now back at home
I start anew
I know now to recognize
That everything that makes us well
Comes with compromise
(Went to New York from California for cancer surgery)
#travel
445 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
3rd Nov 2017 10:16pm
3rd Nov 2017 10:16pm
Reborn
Will isolation ruin a soul
if the aloneness is the best part of the whole?
Maybe I'm not the worst companion
but I learn so much more alone.
With just a self and not even a reflection
thinking takes over if I pay attention...
to the clues imagined in existence for me.
The world is unique, individually.
Language is art, in presentation, maybe,
out on a limb of an invisible tree-
Without understanding, the words are lost,
sounds not heard, the sun not seen..
I elect to donate to the molecular breakdown
and...
if the aloneness is the best part of the whole?
Maybe I'm not the worst companion
but I learn so much more alone.
With just a self and not even a reflection
thinking takes over if I pay attention...
to the clues imagined in existence for me.
The world is unique, individually.
Language is art, in presentation, maybe,
out on a limb of an invisible tree-
Without understanding, the words are lost,
sounds not heard, the sun not seen..
I elect to donate to the molecular breakdown
and...
#rebirth
504 reads
2 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
31st Oct 2017 7:07am
31st Oct 2017 7:07am
A Flower
I might be getting older now
although it feels inside out.
Still my head is filled with doubt
as I lay my life upon you.
To deaf ears I do sometimes shout
as the echo trickles down.
A change is about to happen now
as I cling to my past youth.
Wild fire burns all around.
I never will be found.
Saved more times than I can count,
tonight I bid adieu.
although it feels inside out.
Still my head is filled with doubt
as I lay my life upon you.
To deaf ears I do sometimes shout
as the echo trickles down.
A change is about to happen now
as I cling to my past youth.
Wild fire burns all around.
I never will be found.
Saved more times than I can count,
tonight I bid adieu.
#LifeAsAWriter
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SELF POEM
Published
28th Oct 2017 3:53am
28th Oct 2017 3:53am
The Cure
I am aware to an extent
that my temper peaks sooner than it should.
Alcohol sounds like a good answer
but then that just makes me cry.
In a pool of good intent
it can become swiftly misunderstood.
My heartbeat just gets faster.
There is no option to decide....
....who upon this earth gets to breathe for one more day?
Look in the eyes of compromise and tell me what to say-
Do I fight for just a purpose only focusing on me?
Do I give it up for those of us that are dying to be free?-
....Free of the burden...
that my temper peaks sooner than it should.
Alcohol sounds like a good answer
but then that just makes me cry.
In a pool of good intent
it can become swiftly misunderstood.
My heartbeat just gets faster.
There is no option to decide....
....who upon this earth gets to breathe for one more day?
Look in the eyes of compromise and tell me what to say-
Do I fight for just a purpose only focusing on me?
Do I give it up for those of us that are dying to be free?-
....Free of the burden...
#sadness
#parent
#LifeAsAWriter
#emotional
#hurt
556 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
27th Oct 2017 7:09pm
27th Oct 2017 7:09pm
What is my life
Because I know no better
I need to see through
The dismal reviews and adaptations of truths
With fog overwhelming
There's no time to lose
Counting on some circumstance
If I can make that up
Oh to be that fast
I would explain the world if you wanted me to
But some concepts must be grasped
For my absence
From learning when it was time
I ran from the long - lasting
Just to catch a good high
With no more chances
It's just another night
But I see what I could have been
If I had participated in "what is...
I need to see through
The dismal reviews and adaptations of truths
With fog overwhelming
There's no time to lose
Counting on some circumstance
If I can make that up
Oh to be that fast
I would explain the world if you wanted me to
But some concepts must be grasped
For my absence
From learning when it was time
I ran from the long - lasting
Just to catch a good high
With no more chances
It's just another night
But I see what I could have been
If I had participated in "what is...
#identity
#confessional
#SelfReflection
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