Submissions by sammyr88
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
DARK POEM
Published
1st Oct 2021 3:27am
1st Oct 2021 3:27am
I'm Sorry
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I'm not good enough.
I'm sorry I can't be better.
I'm sorry I didn't try harder.
I did try though.
I tried so hard for so long.
I tried, and many times thought I was making progress and getting better.
Then, suddenly, out of nowhere, progress not only stops, but completely turns the opposite direction and I find myself back where I started, and have to start all over again.
I'm tired of trying.
It is exhausting,
trying to ride on this crazy roller-coaster, going up and down, and up and down.
It makes me...
I'm sorry I'm not good enough.
I'm sorry I can't be better.
I'm sorry I didn't try harder.
I did try though.
I tried so hard for so long.
I tried, and many times thought I was making progress and getting better.
Then, suddenly, out of nowhere, progress not only stops, but completely turns the opposite direction and I find myself back where I started, and have to start all over again.
I'm tired of trying.
It is exhausting,
trying to ride on this crazy roller-coaster, going up and down, and up and down.
It makes me...
#depression
#suicide
#God
#despair
#emptiness
1192 reads
3 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
1st Oct 2021 3:26am
1st Oct 2021 3:26am
Dear God
Dear God:
I hate myself!
I hate my life!
I hate this world!
Why is life worth living?
What's the point of it all?
Why am I here?
Why do I still care?
I don't care!
Go away!
Leave me alone!
Stop telling me what to do!
Stop preventing me from doing what I want to do!
I don't want to be here!
I want to go home!
I want to be free!
I want to be happy!
I want to not fear!
I want to not cry!
Please let me leave!
Please take me away!
Please bring me...
I hate myself!
I hate my life!
I hate this world!
Why is life worth living?
What's the point of it all?
Why am I here?
Why do I still care?
I don't care!
Go away!
Leave me alone!
Stop telling me what to do!
Stop preventing me from doing what I want to do!
I don't want to be here!
I want to go home!
I want to be free!
I want to be happy!
I want to not fear!
I want to not cry!
Please let me leave!
Please take me away!
Please bring me...
#depression
#dark
#God
#confusion
#emptiness
361 reads
1 Comment
FICTIONAL PROSE
Published
30th Sep 2021 7:05pm
30th Sep 2021 7:05pm
The Tiring Journey
There was a time that I was hanging from the edge of a very high cliff. I'm not exactly sure how I ended up there. I think it may have been a combination of events that led me to the cliff, yet it seemed so sudden. In a blink of an eye, I was not only on top of this cliff ledge, but somehow managed to fall too near to the edge and slipped down the side. It was almost as though I had been pushed. Though I could not say for sure what had happened.
I was slipping and my fingers and arms were becoming tired of holding on. I couldn't get back up, no matter how much I tried. It seemed...
I was slipping and my fingers and arms were becoming tired of holding on. I couldn't get back up, no matter how much I tried. It seemed...
#depression
#dark
#friendship
#God
#faith
349 reads
2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
30th Sep 2021 7:05pm
30th Sep 2021 7:05pm
Why?
I can’t stand it anymore,
Everything hurts.
Why do I feel this way?
Why do I care?
I want to just go on with my life,
But I’m stuck.
I can’t do it myself.
I feel so lost and alone.
I am confused.
What do I do?
I wish the pain would just stop!
Sometimes it is hard to breathe,
I don’t want to live.
I am not afraid to die.
So then why am I still here?
What holds me together?
I am afraid of life but also of afterlife.
How long must I endure this world with pain and suffering and sadness?
How much...
Everything hurts.
Why do I feel this way?
Why do I care?
I want to just go on with my life,
But I’m stuck.
I can’t do it myself.
I feel so lost and alone.
I am confused.
What do I do?
I wish the pain would just stop!
Sometimes it is hard to breathe,
I don’t want to live.
I am not afraid to die.
So then why am I still here?
What holds me together?
I am afraid of life but also of afterlife.
How long must I endure this world with pain and suffering and sadness?
How much...
#depression
#loneliness
#dark
#God
#confusion
358 reads
1 Comment
DARK POEM
Published
30th Sep 2021 4:41am
30th Sep 2021 4:41am
All I See Is Darkness
It may be bright and sunny outside,
But all I see are dark clouds.
The birds may be singing joyful songs,
But all I hear are the sounds of nothingness.
It may smell like fresh air and flowers
But all I smell is rot and decay.
There may be a beautiful rainbow
But I all I see is a terrible storm.
There may be a soft gentle breeze
But all I feel is a devastating tornado.
The squirrels may be chittering playfully
But all I hear is wails of torment.
There may be people laughing together at an inside...
But all I see are dark clouds.
The birds may be singing joyful songs,
But all I hear are the sounds of nothingness.
It may smell like fresh air and flowers
But all I smell is rot and decay.
There may be a beautiful rainbow
But I all I see is a terrible storm.
There may be a soft gentle breeze
But all I feel is a devastating tornado.
The squirrels may be chittering playfully
But all I hear is wails of torment.
There may be people laughing together at an inside...
#sadness
#depression
#loneliness
#dark
#despair
218 reads
3 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
30th Sep 2021 4:29am
30th Sep 2021 4:29am
To Wear Masks/Reality?
To Wear Masks
You look at me, but you don't see me.
You know my name and think you know me, but you don't really know me.
You know the me that I let you see,
not the me that I really am; that I hide from everyone.
I don't want anyone to know who I really am,
or what I really think about.
Everyone would be afraid and wonder what is wrong and wonder why I feel the way I do.
There is no reason!
I have no answers!
If I knew, then maybe I could fix it! but I can't...
As much as I try, I always fail!
Sometimes I feel like I am...
You look at me, but you don't see me.
You know my name and think you know me, but you don't really know me.
You know the me that I let you see,
not the me that I really am; that I hide from everyone.
I don't want anyone to know who I really am,
or what I really think about.
Everyone would be afraid and wonder what is wrong and wonder why I feel the way I do.
There is no reason!
I have no answers!
If I knew, then maybe I could fix it! but I can't...
As much as I try, I always fail!
Sometimes I feel like I am...
#sadness
#depression
#dark
#despair
#emptiness
283 reads
2 Comments
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