Submissions by rudabeyga

a sedated saturday    
in my room--no tremors    
to remind me i'm alive.    
my pupils dilate. i fall off    
the bed--a cartoon boulder -    
a crazed joker with a medicine    
cabinet full of punch lines.    
   
i wash the walls with chloroform!    
   
breathe deep and    
close my eyes,
   
i am motionless in white--a    
bright shadow, flickering,    
   
phasing in and out    
of consciousness,    
   
drowning you out    
slower than    
god created earth.

this face of mine  
when the duct tape  
gives way and it leaks  
like a broken faucet,  
 
remnants of depressed  
folly - lacerations, burns,  
and hidden calluses,  
 
the way i look into  
the dark beyond when  
i'm down in a rabbit hole,  
 
a fire burning tall  
and wide, overtaking  
the world's storms,
mountains,  
 
my stretched-out grin,  
and better yet:  
a nervous twitch at  
the corner of my lips,  
 
a hope, a feverish hunger  
as...