Submissions by msbeav (Brenda)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
29th Oct 2024 2:19am
29th Oct 2024 2:19am
I'm a fighter and survivor
I’m not going to tell you that my life has been easy…
It’s been hard as hell.
There have been so many times that I survived one thing just to get hit with five more.
But I never really thought about how hard it was or if I’d make it…
It wasn’t ever a choice.
I found a way.
I made a way.
I figured it out.
I kept going.
It’s hurt, physically, mentally and emotionally, but I always got through it.
When the waves of life come at you, you make a choice to sink or swim…
So I fought, scrapped and dug my way out of the darkness more than once. ...
It’s been hard as hell.
There have been so many times that I survived one thing just to get hit with five more.
But I never really thought about how hard it was or if I’d make it…
It wasn’t ever a choice.
I found a way.
I made a way.
I figured it out.
I kept going.
It’s hurt, physically, mentally and emotionally, but I always got through it.
When the waves of life come at you, you make a choice to sink or swim…
So I fought, scrapped and dug my way out of the darkness more than once. ...
#courage
#emotions
#strength
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SELF POEM
Published
18th Oct 2024 4:56pm
18th Oct 2024 4:56pm
Tell Me A Story
Tell me a story ...
Of how people stay,
Not how they leave.
Tell me a story ...
Of a beautiful world,
Not the ugly one I see.
Tell me a story ..
Of hope,
Not despair.
Tell me a story ...
Of justice and kindness.
Tell me a story ...
Of how everything
works out in the end.
Tell me a story ...
With a happy ending .
Tell me everything will be okay.
Tell me a story ...
Of how much I'm loved.
Tell me that I matter.
Of how people stay,
Not how they leave.
Tell me a story ...
Of a beautiful world,
Not the ugly one I see.
Tell me a story ..
Of hope,
Not despair.
Tell me a story ...
Of justice and kindness.
Tell me a story ...
Of how everything
works out in the end.
Tell me a story ...
With a happy ending .
Tell me everything will be okay.
Tell me a story ...
Of how much I'm loved.
Tell me that I matter.
#emptiness
#heartbroken
#loneliness
#rejection
#sadness
129 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
16th Oct 2024 6:56pm
16th Oct 2024 6:56pm
Do I know you?
Where are you?
I can't to see your face
Your vague shadow
Hangs over my waking, sleeping dreams
I can't make you out
Do I know you...
Do you know me?
I always look for you
Thought I found you once or twice
But I didn't
I'm still alone
Are you in my waking world
Shrouded by my confusion
Missing from my side?
Here I am, where are you?
Isn't this where you're supposed to be,
Here ... Beside me?
Arent you my Brandi Lee?
But I'm alone
Spending my days,...
I can't to see your face
Your vague shadow
Hangs over my waking, sleeping dreams
I can't make you out
Do I know you...
Do you know me?
I always look for you
Thought I found you once or twice
But I didn't
I'm still alone
Are you in my waking world
Shrouded by my confusion
Missing from my side?
Here I am, where are you?
Isn't this where you're supposed to be,
Here ... Beside me?
Arent you my Brandi Lee?
But I'm alone
Spending my days,...
#despair
#emptiness
#grief #heartbroken
#grief #heartbroken
66 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
16th Oct 2024 6:50pm
16th Oct 2024 6:50pm
Play My Part
You would never know it
The constant pain I feel
Because in the light of the day
Its as if it wasn't real.
Sure, I'll play, I'll laugh
I'll even sing your songs
But the pain is still there, it's lurking
Because it's been here all along.
Then the darkness comes
And it's got so damn much power
Slowly takes my soul
Hour by dreadful hour.
They tell me to stay strong
They swear it gets better
They say, " if you can just hold out
And bear this stormy weather. "
They tell me happiness...
The constant pain I feel
Because in the light of the day
Its as if it wasn't real.
Sure, I'll play, I'll laugh
I'll even sing your songs
But the pain is still there, it's lurking
Because it's been here all along.
Then the darkness comes
And it's got so damn much power
Slowly takes my soul
Hour by dreadful hour.
They tell me to stay strong
They swear it gets better
They say, " if you can just hold out
And bear this stormy weather. "
They tell me happiness...
#despair
#emptiness
#grief
#heartbroken
#loneliness
89 reads
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
12th Sep 2024 4:50pm
12th Sep 2024 4:50pm
Daisy Mae
Daisy Mae
Three and a half pounds of heart and might.
My ride or die, my best friend, my sidekick.
Her monkey and hippo, dear friends indeed,
Humping hippo brought laughter, and a hint of mischief in need.
She'd embarrass me, with a twinkle in her eye, putting on a show for all to see.
On my shoulders while driving is where she'd ride,
Looking out the window,
wild and free.
Everywhere we went, people would stare,
In awe of her beauty and personality to share.
Fearless and fierce, with big dogs around, ...
Three and a half pounds of heart and might.
My ride or die, my best friend, my sidekick.
Her monkey and hippo, dear friends indeed,
Humping hippo brought laughter, and a hint of mischief in need.
She'd embarrass me, with a twinkle in her eye, putting on a show for all to see.
On my shoulders while driving is where she'd ride,
Looking out the window,
wild and free.
Everywhere we went, people would stare,
In awe of her beauty and personality to share.
Fearless and fierce, with big dogs around, ...
#emotions
#love
#TimeHeals
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STORY POEM
Published
24th Apr 2024 3:19pm
24th Apr 2024 3:19pm
Love Will Never Die
On the night my mom passed I had a dream. In my dream was this beautiful angel with large pink wings. The angel smiled and said to me, " dry your eyes child, your mom is tired and ready to go home." NO , I screamed, this is her home!
The angel replied - follow me, there's something I want you to see.
She pointed to the left and there stood my mom in a field of wildflowers. She looked so beautiful with long dark auburn hair and not a wrinkle did I see. My mom was smiling and talking with my grandma and grandpa, aunts and uncles and my brother Joe too.
The...
The angel replied - follow me, there's something I want you to see.
She pointed to the left and there stood my mom in a field of wildflowers. She looked so beautiful with long dark auburn hair and not a wrinkle did I see. My mom was smiling and talking with my grandma and grandpa, aunts and uncles and my brother Joe too.
The...
#brother
#father
#mother
#separation
#sister
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UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
29th Feb 2024 9:43pm
29th Feb 2024 9:43pm
As I Get Older
Time is just the most precious thing. The older you get, I guess the more you realize this. Maybe it’s not even an age thing. Maybe it’s a maturity thing, but none of us really knows for sure exactly how much of it we’re going to be given, and so when you truly grow, you learn to prioritize it well.
You learn to value your time, and take it for the gift that it is. Not tomorrow. Not a year from now. Not when you graduate, or when you meet “the one,” or when you have enough money. Not when you finally have all your ducks in a row, or when all your dreams come true. But now.
...
You learn to value your time, and take it for the gift that it is. Not tomorrow. Not a year from now. Not when you graduate, or when you meet “the one,” or when you have enough money. Not when you finally have all your ducks in a row, or when all your dreams come true. But now.
...
#love
#inspirational
#gratitude
#redemption
#emotions
191 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
23rd Jan 2024 7:36pm
23rd Jan 2024 7:36pm
Love Myself
I think there will always be part of me that requires extra TLC.
I think I'll always look into the mirror and fear the revival of versions of me that expired and faded with time.
I think I'll always relive how brutal it was when I picked myself apart
I see my reflection, I'll always visualize my flaws,
I think it's the voice in my head ... The one that told me that I wasn't good enough, is the same one that desperately reaches out to chat.
I think it's because for so long it defined me, it was my reasoning for everything.
I think my obsession with...
I think I'll always look into the mirror and fear the revival of versions of me that expired and faded with time.
I think I'll always relive how brutal it was when I picked myself apart
I see my reflection, I'll always visualize my flaws,
I think it's the voice in my head ... The one that told me that I wasn't good enough, is the same one that desperately reaches out to chat.
I think it's because for so long it defined me, it was my reasoning for everything.
I think my obsession with...
#strength
#redemption
#emotions
175 reads
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
13th Dec 2023 8:52pm
13th Dec 2023 8:52pm
I'm Sorry
I'm sorry Brandi,
How I wish I could go back to change the wrong things I put you through, and to make time rearrange.
I'm sorry for what my life, fears and screw-ups, have done to you, I simply rolled with what those fears handed me.
Yes I should have done more and not just let it be. I was so scared and didn't really know what to do.
I'm sorry I wasn't there for you like I should have been -there's no excuse for it.
Those wounds you bear may never mend and I live with that every day.
But that doesn't mean that I the love I feel for you isn't real....
How I wish I could go back to change the wrong things I put you through, and to make time rearrange.
I'm sorry for what my life, fears and screw-ups, have done to you, I simply rolled with what those fears handed me.
Yes I should have done more and not just let it be. I was so scared and didn't really know what to do.
I'm sorry I wasn't there for you like I should have been -there's no excuse for it.
Those wounds you bear may never mend and I live with that every day.
But that doesn't mean that I the love I feel for you isn't real....
#mother
#memories
#separation #daughter
#separation #daughter
246 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
2nd Dec 2023 5:19pm
2nd Dec 2023 5:19pm
Anything Like Me
If you're anything like me, then you're hard as fuck on yourself. You often forgive others easily for their mistakes but when it comes to your own, you'll hold grudges against yourself forever - but you're working on that part.
You fight hard to get what you want, but you're not afraid of that - it isn't anything new. You've learned to be tough on the outside but on the inside, you're sensitive, with a heart that is bigger than you.
You have a smart-ass mouth - a gift and a curse - but it's really only used as a defense mechanism towards those who think that they can...
You fight hard to get what you want, but you're not afraid of that - it isn't anything new. You've learned to be tough on the outside but on the inside, you're sensitive, with a heart that is bigger than you.
You have a smart-ass mouth - a gift and a curse - but it's really only used as a defense mechanism towards those who think that they can...
#kindness
#strength
#forgiveness
#motivational
#TimeHeals
185 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
27th Sep 2023 10:37pm
27th Sep 2023 10:37pm
Nothingness
The sound of two people ignoring each other
The sound of no one being there for another
The sound of hearing nothingness in the air
The sound of no one bothering to care
The sound of the wind blowing everything away
The sound of the pain you go through everyday
The sound of everything that is unknown
The sound of being completely alone
The sound of thinking quietly inside
The sound of being left behind
The sound of trying not to cry
The sound of wishing you could die
The sound of silence can't be heard ...
The sound of no one being there for another
The sound of hearing nothingness in the air
The sound of no one bothering to care
The sound of the wind blowing everything away
The sound of the pain you go through everyday
The sound of everything that is unknown
The sound of being completely alone
The sound of thinking quietly inside
The sound of being left behind
The sound of trying not to cry
The sound of wishing you could die
The sound of silence can't be heard ...
#grief
#rejection
#heartbroken
#despair
#emptiness
306 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
12th Sep 2023 9:08pm
12th Sep 2023 9:08pm
I Have To
I have to move on from my past.
It's hard, but I have to start somewhere.
I have to take it day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute.
I need to be serious about leaving the bullshit behind.
Serious about starting over.
It's not going to be easy, but then nobody ever said this process was going to be.
But I have to start somewhere.
Hopefully I will learn how to move on from them, from the relationships that have done me more harm than good.
Some days will be harder than others and I'm...
It's hard, but I have to start somewhere.
I have to take it day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute.
I need to be serious about leaving the bullshit behind.
Serious about starting over.
It's not going to be easy, but then nobody ever said this process was going to be.
But I have to start somewhere.
Hopefully I will learn how to move on from them, from the relationships that have done me more harm than good.
Some days will be harder than others and I'm...
#strength
#hope
#courage
#TimeHeals
#emotions
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