Submissions by lovebysight

i think i need this to be the end,
the end of my life... of my world.
ive been thinking for awhile now and this has to be it,
so i say goodbye.
i say goodbye to the love of my life
the man i wanted to be my forever,
i say goodbye to my aunt... been there when no one else was.
goodbye to my sister
a pain in my ass but there.

i chose this fate for myself because this world is just to hard to bear,
i can no longer live this life.
i never knew life would be this hard,
my arms are scarred and my heart is broken....
but i can now speak the...

he got on the bus tears streaming remembering everyone he'd left behind,
he remembered mom, dad, uncle chris,
then one face came to his mind that bright beautiful face belonged to her,
the girl he loved all along, the one that meant so much to him,
he loved he and thats all he knew,
he knew she loved him and that was enough, enough to get him through.
he remembered her warm brown eyes,
and her cropped blonde hair,
he remember those lips ; the lips he could spend an eternity kissing.
he sat there remembering everything he loved about his "...

i thought this woould be easy,
just take a couple pills or cut a little deeper.
i reallized its harder than anything,
harder than saying goodbye
harder than starting over.
i thought i could do it but i cant,
ive got the gun under my pillow and the knife in my drawer but i just cant go through with this.

i thought this would be easy,
just letting go, just being free... finally.
its harder than i thought but i have to do it,
i take the gun out and load it.
i put the gun to my temple my hands are so shakey i can bearly put it in the right place...