Submissions by lostsoul9712

I guess he will never know..
That the innocence of a litte girl is what he stole
 He tried to play it off as it was a lie
Just force a smile and pretend your fine (:
 He told me not to say a word
At night I stayed up late calling on the lord
  Does it ever go away.. The guilt inside?
The lost girl the police are looking for.. They will never find
  I trusted you.. You were suppose to protect me
Instead you stole something.. You fucking theif
  How do you live with yourself knowing what you did
I'm stuck on the words you said
   Was it a dream...

He's suppose to hold your heart
especially when your world is falling apart
Hold your hand in time of need
be there with a towel when she cuts her arms and bleeds
Tell her its ok when she knows its not
help her try to end the screams in the back of her head even when she knows its never going to stop.
How much longer must she pretend
that barely knowing you is tearing her apart on the other end.
Dad, is that what shes suppose to call you?
even though you were never there for her.. you have no clue.
Remember you told her to always be brave
that...

Have you ever been so tired that getting up is no longer an option?
 Been so hurt that getting hurt again is impossible?
 Been in so much pain that breathing is something that u regret doing because u would rather be dead than be breathing at all?
 It never really ends does it? The torture that's being done by your own self... The abuse that being given by the demons and monsters within... The screams not only continue to become louder in the back of your head but also in the nightmares that you could never seem to escape...
 It never really seems to get easy especially...

There's a girl in the mirror.. do you see?
she's standing tall looking at me
 Her arms are cut and bruised up
She's not only trapped but she's stuck
 I smile at her and then she cries
"stop pretending, I know you want to die"
 what does she mean? I don't no?
"stop putting up a front.. leave the show"
 I cant believe what she's saying to me
"the monsters and demons wont let you go.. they wont set you free"
 How did she know what they do
everything she's saying is sadly true
 She's crying now all I see are tears...

Pain...hurt..confusion...lost...torn...broken..trapped..alone. how do you live knowing you want to die? How do you smile knowing you want to cry?
 She's lost and can't find her way.. she's stuck smiling the pain away.
  She's a 16 year old girl she should be wishimg colleges would take her... instead she's wishing to not wake up In the morning.
   What pisses her off is they don't get it. They don't get that she suffers day and night but uses a mask to shield the pain she's in. They don't understand that the wish to be dead doesn't always mean she's gonna take her own life......