Submissions by kayysflow_

All the promises you made to me never added up w the actions you gave to me. & I still think aboutchu. But I don't wanna be around you. I can't handle your energy, cause I always carry the burden back home w me.

The struggle, isn't it priceless? They try and trap us in the system and then jack up the prices. Then go n tell us ,'you can be anything in ya life kid.' Yet they don't say how hard shit is. Blood, sweat , tears, fuck it I'm a get there. Even if I gotta lay low,& lose friends just to freshen my air. It won't be easy & idk if I'm ready but I know I ain't scared. The process gon hurt a bit. But I'm young, hungry & 100%  worth it.

I got so much pain and resentment in my chest for you but is crazy that I still love you though. I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve & is like you still don't feel me though. How fast I gotta run when I'm chasin' every piece of you, I just can't take it'. I'm not ya girl, I ain't ya bm, & yet you shit on me like I'm just an associate type a friend. Like G I'm a whole half a you ! & if i start a jet lag than you front on me, my feelings, & go missing out the blue. Idk pops. There may not be a next time, I might listen when you tell me "kick rocks". Ain't no redeeming...

Us living busy lives got us treating each other like business ties. Even though you calm my crazy, I'm getting so anxious lately. Like the distance & distractions are distracting our personal plans & actions. I promise, I'll always come back for you. Just hate that I even gotta leave. Maybe I need to get out of my comfort zone. Just pack my shit, catch that bus & bounce on my own. But who even knows if you'd be ready? I'll give you as much space as you need till you nice n steady. I know love is smooth & patient, so I'm just gon have to face it. I'm done writing about this...

Is like, why am I so lost? I just seem to want that old feeling back . But is like is still there & you just ain't really feeling me back. I know, the distance is rough. & ya, I know you out there & you just doing the dam thing handling ya business n stuff. I know is been a while, but is that old feeling still enough? I don't wanna be a bother when I keep reaching out. Something just won't let me let you go idk what it's even about. I really am a fool. Got me miles away just sick wishin & wantin you. I ain't mad atcha, I know you think I'm tripping on ya but baby think about...