the mind of an addict can be so complicated the feelings of guilt, and shame seem always belated the resentments sit in the heart waiting, ready to tear your mind apart... in the beginning its all fun and games learning to know all the right names, living the crazy life forgetting that your a mother and a wife running from yourself with no where to hide killing yourself a slow unknowing suicide.. slinging the dope, running out of hope and out of the blue it becomes a way of life your only means to survive never knowing who to trust and...