Submissions by juliajay
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
STORY POEM
Published
24th Dec 2012 6:55pm
24th Dec 2012 6:55pm
It Just Keeps Getting Darker and Colder
I just keep swimming
Lower and lower
And it just keeps getting darker and colder
I don't want to swim anymore
My arms hurt and I'm running out of breath
The darkness is overwhelming and it's swallowing me
I don't want to live anymore
And I keep crying for help
But no one hears me
They all plug their ears
I'm going to let go
Lower and lower
And it just keeps getting darker and colder
I don't want to swim anymore
My arms hurt and I'm running out of breath
The darkness is overwhelming and it's swallowing me
I don't want to live anymore
And I keep crying for help
But no one hears me
They all plug their ears
I'm going to let go
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SELF POEM
Published
24th Dec 2012 5:21am
24th Dec 2012 5:21am
Clenched Teeth
I think people are laughing at me
But I know no one knows
What's going on in my head?
I can't seem to catch a grip
I feel so fucking stupid
I feel so damn ignorant
It used to be easy, ya know?
Ask my why I'm alive
I could have told you a million reasons why
Could have...because I want to die
Die die die die
It's this little voice in my head
It repeats it over and over like a broken record
It's the only way out
The only thing to stop the pain now
I can't live my life when I feel like it doesn't exist
I keep trying to flash a...
But I know no one knows
What's going on in my head?
I can't seem to catch a grip
I feel so fucking stupid
I feel so damn ignorant
It used to be easy, ya know?
Ask my why I'm alive
I could have told you a million reasons why
Could have...because I want to die
Die die die die
It's this little voice in my head
It repeats it over and over like a broken record
It's the only way out
The only thing to stop the pain now
I can't live my life when I feel like it doesn't exist
I keep trying to flash a...
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SELF POEM
Published
22nd Oct 2012 1:51am
22nd Oct 2012 1:51am
I See My Life In Shades Of Gray
I see my life in shades of gray
I have nothing left, so I just pray
To a God I feel ignores me
Showing me no one said life would be easy
I am ignorant to the happiness
That can't be achieved if I don't care less
I'm walking through a never ending tunnel
And going deeper into this so called "puddle"
It isn't supposed to always be dark
But then again, no one said it'd be a walk in the park
I have nothing left, so I just pray
To a God I feel ignores me
Showing me no one said life would be easy
I am ignorant to the happiness
That can't be achieved if I don't care less
I'm walking through a never ending tunnel
And going deeper into this so called "puddle"
It isn't supposed to always be dark
But then again, no one said it'd be a walk in the park
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SELF POEM
Published
21st Oct 2012 5:13pm
21st Oct 2012 5:13pm
Just For A Day
Damn why can't I get it through my head?
I'm walking through this world like the living dead
I poke my head around forbidden corners
I smoke my problems away, I'm a stoner
I can't tell you what I'm living for
I really just can't do it no more
Nothings ever going to change
I give love and get hate in exchange
I'm tired of being me
I'm tired of being so angry
I wish I could switch bodies just for a day
Then maybe people will actually listen to what I have to say
I'm walking through this world like the living dead
I poke my head around forbidden corners
I smoke my problems away, I'm a stoner
I can't tell you what I'm living for
I really just can't do it no more
Nothings ever going to change
I give love and get hate in exchange
I'm tired of being me
I'm tired of being so angry
I wish I could switch bodies just for a day
Then maybe people will actually listen to what I have to say
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SELF POEM
Published
20th Oct 2012 6:34pm
20th Oct 2012 6:34pm
And I'm Left Hugging The Ground
I wanted to be there for you
I never wanted to be the issue
But now I'm hurting again
That's why I always stay in my little den
To keep from being the devil
And stop hurting on a higher level
I can't be the source of her pain
The anger, sorrow, hate, is driving me insane
I run five steps up
When suddenly a volcano erupts
Throwing me down
And I'm left hugging the ground
I'm so helpless in a world full of help
Trying so hard to scream, but I can't even make a yelp
I'm drowning in a pool of misery
I seemed to have misplaced my bravery
I never wanted to be the issue
But now I'm hurting again
That's why I always stay in my little den
To keep from being the devil
And stop hurting on a higher level
I can't be the source of her pain
The anger, sorrow, hate, is driving me insane
I run five steps up
When suddenly a volcano erupts
Throwing me down
And I'm left hugging the ground
I'm so helpless in a world full of help
Trying so hard to scream, but I can't even make a yelp
I'm drowning in a pool of misery
I seemed to have misplaced my bravery
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LOVE POEM
Published
16th Oct 2012 2:44am
16th Oct 2012 2:44am
Heart Like a Kite
I can look into your eyes all day long
They speak to me like they're singing a song
I love being in your arms
I feel like no one could ever cause me harm
You make me feel like I'm worth something
Instead of a whole bunch of nothing
I think I could kiss you all night
Because you fly my heart like a kite
I really hope we work out
So you can finally be my baby without a doubt
They speak to me like they're singing a song
I love being in your arms
I feel like no one could ever cause me harm
You make me feel like I'm worth something
Instead of a whole bunch of nothing
I think I could kiss you all night
Because you fly my heart like a kite
I really hope we work out
So you can finally be my baby without a doubt
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SELF POEM
Published
14th Oct 2012 10:35pm
14th Oct 2012 10:35pm
Old News
I just have to make sure I don't get hurt
It'll never change, I'll always feel like dirt
I just can't trust anyone
I gave up on life, I was done
After all the things said
And now all these broken threads
I just can't seem to catch a grip
We all sat and watched as you made my mind strip
You watched it naked
Knowing I wouldn't make it
You put me in such a vulnerable position
& now I can't even follow my intuition
You took my puzzle pieces apart
To open me up and laugh at my broken heart
I could never trust again
My self value is...
It'll never change, I'll always feel like dirt
I just can't trust anyone
I gave up on life, I was done
After all the things said
And now all these broken threads
I just can't seem to catch a grip
We all sat and watched as you made my mind strip
You watched it naked
Knowing I wouldn't make it
You put me in such a vulnerable position
& now I can't even follow my intuition
You took my puzzle pieces apart
To open me up and laugh at my broken heart
I could never trust again
My self value is...
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LOVE POEM
Published
22nd Sep 2012 1:37am
22nd Sep 2012 1:37am
Two Girls Playing with Fire
I close my eyes and see beauty
I see the girl I want to love me
Your smile is the rainbow after my storm
My cold heart starts to transform
I think of you and my lips curve to a perfect grin
Like Romeo and Juliet with a classic spin
My heart fills with butterflies
Can't you see it in my eyes?
I will always care for you
I can't believe I never knew
I'm no longer blind
To the happiness I thought could never be mine
Telling you was on of the hardest things I had to do
Someone like you?
Two girls playing with fire
But they all say do...
I see the girl I want to love me
Your smile is the rainbow after my storm
My cold heart starts to transform
I think of you and my lips curve to a perfect grin
Like Romeo and Juliet with a classic spin
My heart fills with butterflies
Can't you see it in my eyes?
I will always care for you
I can't believe I never knew
I'm no longer blind
To the happiness I thought could never be mine
Telling you was on of the hardest things I had to do
Someone like you?
Two girls playing with fire
But they all say do...
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LOVE POEM
Published
12th Sep 2012 1:42am
12th Sep 2012 1:42am
My Unholy Sin
Sometimes I hear my heartbeat
Pounding in my ears
Are all my decisions really concrete?
We lift another shot, cheers!
Goodbye to my furrowed eyebrow
And my frown disguised as a grin
Let me take one more shot now
While committing my unholy sin
I think about all I've done wrong
My friends sing their drunk song
While I think about all the horrible thoughts
Left in my heart and brain to rot
This is supposed to be my happy hour
But now my tears are giving me a shower
Pounding in my ears
Are all my decisions really concrete?
We lift another shot, cheers!
Goodbye to my furrowed eyebrow
And my frown disguised as a grin
Let me take one more shot now
While committing my unholy sin
I think about all I've done wrong
My friends sing their drunk song
While I think about all the horrible thoughts
Left in my heart and brain to rot
This is supposed to be my happy hour
But now my tears are giving me a shower
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LOVE POEM
Published
5th Sep 2012 11:24pm
5th Sep 2012 11:24pm
Have you ever whispered to silence?
He could see it in my eyes
I was tired of all the lies
Tired of letting my balloon float
Just to have someone sink my boat
"I'll never leave you"
He thought I never knew
All smiles come to an end
All kisses have a message to send
I believed everything you said
All to get me in your bed
I hear your mocking laughter
You didn't talk to me the morning after
All the power you gave me
Just to make me blind when I could finally see
I'm hugging your absence
Have you ever whispered to silence?
I was tired of all the lies
Tired of letting my balloon float
Just to have someone sink my boat
"I'll never leave you"
He thought I never knew
All smiles come to an end
All kisses have a message to send
I believed everything you said
All to get me in your bed
I hear your mocking laughter
You didn't talk to me the morning after
All the power you gave me
Just to make me blind when I could finally see
I'm hugging your absence
Have you ever whispered to silence?
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EROTIC POEM
Published
5th Sep 2012 1:11am
5th Sep 2012 1:11am
One Lick, One Smile, Three Tears
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