Submissions by fizzykandikid (Sam.)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
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I thought I loved you
Turned out I was just using you,
To try and heal my broken heart.
My heart isn’t good anymore
I thought being with you would fix it
I never wanted to hurt you
I wanted to love you,
The same way you loved me.
I wish I could love you
I wish I could be good enough for you
I wish you didn’t have feelings for me
I never wanted to hurt you
I wish I could take it all back
Turned out I was just using you,
To try and heal my broken heart.
My heart isn’t good anymore
I thought being with you would fix it
I never wanted to hurt you
I wanted to love you,
The same way you loved me.
I wish I could love you
I wish I could be good enough for you
I wish you didn’t have feelings for me
I never wanted to hurt you
I wish I could take it all back
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wasted
Sixty Days of Sobriety that you just washed down the drain,
Your in so much pain.
The worst feeling in the world is relapsing,
Your collapsing.
Your depressed,
Your feelings are becoming oppressed.
You start the cycle all over again,
When will this madness end?
You’re tired of hurting,
This is becoming so disconcerting.
Your in so much pain.
The worst feeling in the world is relapsing,
Your collapsing.
Your depressed,
Your feelings are becoming oppressed.
You start the cycle all over again,
When will this madness end?
You’re tired of hurting,
This is becoming so disconcerting.
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Life with an alcoholic
Its not as bad at first
There’s so many opportunities to do whatever you want and get away with it
But after a few months,
It gets quite tiresome
Stuff isn’t getting done
Bills aren’t being paid
Mom’s to drunk to go to work
You have to get a job,
Drop out of school,
Become a full-time mom.
Day after day,
You’re forced to watch her drink her life away
You tell her she has a problem
She kicks you out of a house that you pay the bills for
The only thing your worried about are your younger siblings
They don’t know how to deal with...
There’s so many opportunities to do whatever you want and get away with it
But after a few months,
It gets quite tiresome
Stuff isn’t getting done
Bills aren’t being paid
Mom’s to drunk to go to work
You have to get a job,
Drop out of school,
Become a full-time mom.
Day after day,
You’re forced to watch her drink her life away
You tell her she has a problem
She kicks you out of a house that you pay the bills for
The only thing your worried about are your younger siblings
They don’t know how to deal with...
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Xtc Love
Late nights early mornings,
Somehow I avoid hearing all their warnings.
Clearly I should have listened,
12 months later,
Hundreds of pills later.
It’s the path I’ve chosen to go.
There’s no starting over after you get this deep
At first its so cheap,
So easy to swallow the pill.
Later it starts taking longer too hit you.
Some creep tells you to snort it.
You thought you knew how to handle it all
Sooner or later you realize its killing you
At this point you really don’t care anymore
Your so brain dead you can’t even seem to...
Somehow I avoid hearing all their warnings.
Clearly I should have listened,
12 months later,
Hundreds of pills later.
It’s the path I’ve chosen to go.
There’s no starting over after you get this deep
At first its so cheap,
So easy to swallow the pill.
Later it starts taking longer too hit you.
Some creep tells you to snort it.
You thought you knew how to handle it all
Sooner or later you realize its killing you
At this point you really don’t care anymore
Your so brain dead you can’t even seem to...
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False Creation
What is it?
That magnificent feeling,
It sort of takes your breath away.
It even gives you the shakes,
Makes you think everything is going to be okay.
False hope is all it makes.
It’s a creator
It creates some fucked up visions.
Makes you think everything’s ok,
It’s not.
Nowhere near ok.
You’ll do anything for it.
To catch that feeling before the high wears off.
That high.
That’s what you’ve wasted your life away on
Trying to chase it.
You don’t realize that it controls your every move.
It’s a disease that controls your...
That magnificent feeling,
It sort of takes your breath away.
It even gives you the shakes,
Makes you think everything is going to be okay.
False hope is all it makes.
It’s a creator
It creates some fucked up visions.
Makes you think everything’s ok,
It’s not.
Nowhere near ok.
You’ll do anything for it.
To catch that feeling before the high wears off.
That high.
That’s what you’ve wasted your life away on
Trying to chase it.
You don’t realize that it controls your every move.
It’s a disease that controls your...
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For her</3
She chased the dragon into the night
Now we fear she will never see the light
She has so much to live for
But nothing can fill her emptiness more
She thinks everything can be fixed with a pill
Ye the cold still gives her a chill
And the hole she has dug
Will never be filled back up with a drug
She finds comfort in those who know
But they arent the ones to blame
Did she get cut when tasted the glass
Will she ever mend her wings again
Or is every breath she takes
Bringing her...
Now we fear she will never see the light
She has so much to live for
But nothing can fill her emptiness more
She thinks everything can be fixed with a pill
Ye the cold still gives her a chill
And the hole she has dug
Will never be filled back up with a drug
She finds comfort in those who know
But they arent the ones to blame
Did she get cut when tasted the glass
Will she ever mend her wings again
Or is every breath she takes
Bringing her...
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Goodbye.
When i first started,
I thought I could control it.
Almost a year later,
goodbye freedom,
goodbye friends,
goodbye life.
Every hit i take,
every pill i swallow,
it all makes me hallow.
All the stealing,
all the lies,
give me an empty feeling.
I try, and try, and try.
All for what?
Just to die?
I try and control it,
I can't hold it,
that hard just to say no?
Every hit i take,
every pill i swallow,
every smile i fake.
Just to chase that high.
It's me.
I'm that monster,
I thought i would never be....
I thought I could control it.
Almost a year later,
goodbye freedom,
goodbye friends,
goodbye life.
Every hit i take,
every pill i swallow,
it all makes me hallow.
All the stealing,
all the lies,
give me an empty feeling.
I try, and try, and try.
All for what?
Just to die?
I try and control it,
I can't hold it,
that hard just to say no?
Every hit i take,
every pill i swallow,
every smile i fake.
Just to chase that high.
It's me.
I'm that monster,
I thought i would never be....
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