Submissions by cnbsoulmates
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
29th Jun 2024 3:57am
29th Jun 2024 3:57am
Unchartered Waters - Part Four – Swimming with Delight
Stopping at the tracks
Anticipating his arrival
Jump into his car
Forbidden love’s survival
Waiting patiently for his car to come around the curve and pull up beside me. The butterflies were seriously biting and my heart was filled with contentment. It seemed so natural. Opening the door and sliding into the seat next to him. If only it wasn’t necessary for this joy to be invisible to the outside world. I felt alive. I felt loved. I felt real. Emotions that I thought were long buried suddenly were full of life again! Like a couple of teenagers, we would be all giddy...
Anticipating his arrival
Jump into his car
Forbidden love’s survival
Waiting patiently for his car to come around the curve and pull up beside me. The butterflies were seriously biting and my heart was filled with contentment. It seemed so natural. Opening the door and sliding into the seat next to him. If only it wasn’t necessary for this joy to be invisible to the outside world. I felt alive. I felt loved. I felt real. Emotions that I thought were long buried suddenly were full of life again! Like a couple of teenagers, we would be all giddy...
#ForbiddenLove
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
15th Oct 2023 5:50am
15th Oct 2023 5:50am
Unchartered Waters?
Tingling touches
Clever rhyming words
Barely hit the meaning
While loves endless search unfolds
Soulmates all along?
The Falls would surely know
Where Martha ends up showing
How careful soulmates hold...
In a corner room, away from it all, developed something no one ever thought would happen. One said to another that they had something wrong, but to the other it did not matter. Sex was not the "be all, end all" of what was going on. Countless dreams and thoughts just from a few meetings and phone conversations were built over...
Clever rhyming words
Barely hit the meaning
While loves endless search unfolds
Soulmates all along?
The Falls would surely know
Where Martha ends up showing
How careful soulmates hold...
In a corner room, away from it all, developed something no one ever thought would happen. One said to another that they had something wrong, but to the other it did not matter. Sex was not the "be all, end all" of what was going on. Countless dreams and thoughts just from a few meetings and phone conversations were built over...
#ForbiddenLove
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
10th Sep 2023 2:41am
10th Sep 2023 2:41am
Chaos
My life went backwords
Filling voids not really there
The falls ran backwords
Emptying my soul too scared
To admit the truth
I am still a ghost in life
Fighting for love
That never was by my side
Lost my immediate family
I grieve to this day
I am devastated fully
My sanity fell by the way
Suicide blinded me again
So young, so innocent
Could I have saved her
The guilt never relents
Every day I am hit
I struggle to hold on
I have no excuses
Only my present to go on
If you can hear me ...
Filling voids not really there
The falls ran backwords
Emptying my soul too scared
To admit the truth
I am still a ghost in life
Fighting for love
That never was by my side
Lost my immediate family
I grieve to this day
I am devastated fully
My sanity fell by the way
Suicide blinded me again
So young, so innocent
Could I have saved her
The guilt never relents
Every day I am hit
I struggle to hold on
I have no excuses
Only my present to go on
If you can hear me ...
#grief
#confusion
#despair
#disappointment
#emptiness
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
10th Sep 2023 2:40am
10th Sep 2023 2:40am
How?
How do you recover from losing all of your family? Gone to Heaven. Only you now? One after the other. Too close to comprehend. Orphaned...parents gone... No siblings now...you have family, but no one to remember those early years that only they know. Your 1st Christmas? Your 4th Christmas? Your birthdays when you were 3, 4, 5 ,6? Those early vacations only your parents and siblings remember. Now they are all gone. How do you recover from losing a young one to suicide? One you tried to help? God forbid because they were the 2nd young one you lost to the noose? Christ almighty please help. How...
#hope
#confusion
#despair
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
27th Nov 2022 7:43am
27th Nov 2022 7:43am
Too Young To Understand
Never thought I would go through
The empty desk again
But this time baby girl
Taking your life was not an end
Beginning of the questions
I ask over and over again
What did I miss while you thought
Ending your life would make ammends?
I know what happened
And how you decided it would end
I even saw the "helpful texts"
Of your so-called friends
I saw your face in a dream
You looked at me with that smile
I still will never understand
Why you felt you needed to die
Suicide is a permanent...
The empty desk again
But this time baby girl
Taking your life was not an end
Beginning of the questions
I ask over and over again
What did I miss while you thought
Ending your life would make ammends?
I know what happened
And how you decided it would end
I even saw the "helpful texts"
Of your so-called friends
I saw your face in a dream
You looked at me with that smile
I still will never understand
Why you felt you needed to die
Suicide is a permanent...
#sadness
#grief
#heartbroken
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
29th Aug 2021 3:37am
29th Aug 2021 3:37am
This
Life is a crazy ride
Ups and downs
Dying and living
The mind keeps going
Hearts keep ticking
Strength in loss
Time keeps speeding
Farther from the past
Brings more healing
Closing open doors
Looking back at chance
Living now, feeling good
But always remembering the dance...
Ups and downs
Dying and living
The mind keeps going
Hearts keep ticking
Strength in loss
Time keeps speeding
Farther from the past
Brings more healing
Closing open doors
Looking back at chance
Living now, feeling good
But always remembering the dance...
#memories
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
13th May 2020 6:31am
13th May 2020 6:31am
Mirror
Looking at the mirror
Tell me what you see
Is it a chance that slipped away?
Drawing you from me...
Destiny is an illusion
Invented to reflect the light
Have the cake and eat it too?
Make believe endings seem just right
Souls are meant to mate
Love is meant to give
You had it all along
But blindness fought to live
I lightly touched the mirror
As you leaned in to take a look
I Pressed my face against the glass
Because my memory is all you took
Always here...going nowhere
I watched you...
Tell me what you see
Is it a chance that slipped away?
Drawing you from me...
Destiny is an illusion
Invented to reflect the light
Have the cake and eat it too?
Make believe endings seem just right
Souls are meant to mate
Love is meant to give
You had it all along
But blindness fought to live
I lightly touched the mirror
As you leaned in to take a look
I Pressed my face against the glass
Because my memory is all you took
Always here...going nowhere
I watched you...
#mirror
#memories
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SELF POEM
Published
28th Dec 2019 7:15am
28th Dec 2019 7:15am
Try
Have you ever wondered
What happens after you die?
Is it different if you try to
take your life? End in suicide?
Will you know that you are gone
Life as you know it has ended?
Caught between two worlds with
the WHY and WHAT IFs suspended...
If you don't understand
How do you keep on living?
Delusional is an excuse
The truth just keeps on giving...
Reason after reason
Even you don't understand
How do we go on
When there is no reason or plan...
What happens after you die?
Is it different if you try to
take your life? End in suicide?
Will you know that you are gone
Life as you know it has ended?
Caught between two worlds with
the WHY and WHAT IFs suspended...
If you don't understand
How do you keep on living?
Delusional is an excuse
The truth just keeps on giving...
Reason after reason
Even you don't understand
How do we go on
When there is no reason or plan...
#confusion
#emptiness
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SELF POEM
Published
22nd Sep 2019 10:43pm
22nd Sep 2019 10:43pm
Giggle
Want one more?
Sure, call it a celebration
Getting fuzzy, slurring speech
Giggling at no expectations
Have another…
You got it
Stumbling, falling
Giggling, don’t know when to quit
Just one more?
Well, hell yeah, losing count
Spinning, tilting, whirling
Giggling, I love you, no doubt
No more drinky please
Can’t see, can’t really hear
Did I feel me fall? I don’t know…
But I can feel the fear
No more, please
I can’t control my mind
Much less my body
What’s happening this time?
Stop could not be...
Sure, call it a celebration
Getting fuzzy, slurring speech
Giggling at no expectations
Have another…
You got it
Stumbling, falling
Giggling, don’t know when to quit
Just one more?
Well, hell yeah, losing count
Spinning, tilting, whirling
Giggling, I love you, no doubt
No more drinky please
Can’t see, can’t really hear
Did I feel me fall? I don’t know…
But I can feel the fear
No more, please
I can’t control my mind
Much less my body
What’s happening this time?
Stop could not be...
#dark
#emptiness
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SELF POEM
Published
16th Jul 2019 3:41am
16th Jul 2019 3:41am
Unfixable
I hear it in my mind
Too short, too fat
Noting's ever good enough
Stop doing this and do that
I see all the flaws
Laughing back at me
No where to hide
No means to be free
What is wrong with you?
They ask "Why feel this way"?
Nothing is wrong
I'm fine...I finally say
I go back in my shell
Curl up inside
Motivation slips away
Too tired to cry
I struggle to keep going
I know what to do
I just don't have it in me
Consumed by the blues
When I look in...
Too short, too fat
Noting's ever good enough
Stop doing this and do that
I see all the flaws
Laughing back at me
No where to hide
No means to be free
What is wrong with you?
They ask "Why feel this way"?
Nothing is wrong
I'm fine...I finally say
I go back in my shell
Curl up inside
Motivation slips away
Too tired to cry
I struggle to keep going
I know what to do
I just don't have it in me
Consumed by the blues
When I look in...
#sadness
#despair
#emptiness
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FICTIONAL PROSE
Published
11th Jul 2019 00:17am
11th Jul 2019 00:17am
Uncharted Waters - Part Three - Ringtones
The vibration of my cell phone
Followed by my favorite ringtone
The caller was not unknown
Had he picked up on my overtone?
It seems as though it happened overnight. It did not. It was a time span of about three years from the time I got to work closer with him part-time until he was full-time a few doors down. Did I know that was going to happen? No. Am I glad it happened? Yes.
I was dumbfounded when I found out that he would be moving to my department full-time. No more of the phone calls about numbers and fewer emails because he was going to...
Followed by my favorite ringtone
The caller was not unknown
Had he picked up on my overtone?
It seems as though it happened overnight. It did not. It was a time span of about three years from the time I got to work closer with him part-time until he was full-time a few doors down. Did I know that was going to happen? No. Am I glad it happened? Yes.
I was dumbfounded when I found out that he would be moving to my department full-time. No more of the phone calls about numbers and fewer emails because he was going to...
#FallingInLove
#crush
#LookingForLove #obsession
#LookingForLove #obsession
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3 Comments
FICTIONAL PROSE
Published
1st Jul 2019 11:05pm
1st Jul 2019 11:05pm
Uncharted Waters - Part Two - Numbers
Do you ever think about numbers?
I suppose they invade my slumber
I am left with my sense outnumbered
My dreams became all umber
Some say the number thirteen
Is so very unlucky
But for me
That number is swimming deep
I suppose when you work with someone, there is a way to separate yourself. Keep to yourself. But when the attraction is stronger than gravity and then, throw in a sexual spark for good measure…I lost all common sense. I was already head over heels, but he did not know. Then a new direction was presented with the...
I suppose they invade my slumber
I am left with my sense outnumbered
My dreams became all umber
Some say the number thirteen
Is so very unlucky
But for me
That number is swimming deep
I suppose when you work with someone, there is a way to separate yourself. Keep to yourself. But when the attraction is stronger than gravity and then, throw in a sexual spark for good measure…I lost all common sense. I was already head over heels, but he did not know. Then a new direction was presented with the...
#FallingInLove
#crush
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7 Comments
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