Submissions by bleeding_fear96
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I find I have a pathos for all that is melancholy. And while my work may not be masterpieces they are me; the real me that nobody sees.
Better Than Me
Life gets harder the longer I go on
It twists and turns, knocking me down with no chance to get back up.
Mocking and laughing it watches me drown.
Life deserves better than me,
it tells me so daily.
Tossing and turning, all my mistakes are thrown back at me.
Always on the edge of collapse, I fight.
I can't walk, I crawl. Getting kicked in the guts the whole way.
I'm the bane of my parents existence, the deserve better than me,
they tell me so daily.
Brief respites from this hell are just smoke and mirrors,
An illusion watching and...
It twists and turns, knocking me down with no chance to get back up.
Mocking and laughing it watches me drown.
Life deserves better than me,
it tells me so daily.
Tossing and turning, all my mistakes are thrown back at me.
Always on the edge of collapse, I fight.
I can't walk, I crawl. Getting kicked in the guts the whole way.
I'm the bane of my parents existence, the deserve better than me,
they tell me so daily.
Brief respites from this hell are just smoke and mirrors,
An illusion watching and...
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I'm Not Capable.
I don’t know if I’ve ever told you,
Love isn’t an emotion I’m capable of.
Perhaps I should’ve warned you. All I’ll do is cause you pain.
I’m just one of those girls.
Causing pain is what I’m good at.
The other girls you know,
They learnt love from their parents.
But I didn’t, I’m not sure they knew how either.
And I’m sorry in advance, pain is all I’ve ever known.
I’ll do my best not to hurt you but it’ll happen anyway.
It always does.
And I don’t know if I’ve ever told you.
But maybe you should stay away from me.
Love isn’t an...
Love isn’t an emotion I’m capable of.
Perhaps I should’ve warned you. All I’ll do is cause you pain.
I’m just one of those girls.
Causing pain is what I’m good at.
The other girls you know,
They learnt love from their parents.
But I didn’t, I’m not sure they knew how either.
And I’m sorry in advance, pain is all I’ve ever known.
I’ll do my best not to hurt you but it’ll happen anyway.
It always does.
And I don’t know if I’ve ever told you.
But maybe you should stay away from me.
Love isn’t an...
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Caving Under The Pressure.
So many thoughts in my head now,
Causing anguish and fear,
I let my heart have a say in the decision,
That was dumb.
I can’t function under all this pressure,
My skull is caving in while my heart is exploding out of my chest,
All of this is in my head,
In my head,
And in my heart.
What do I do?
I don’t know what to do.
So much pain,
I’m caving in and exploding in the pressure all at once.
Causing anguish and fear,
I let my heart have a say in the decision,
That was dumb.
I can’t function under all this pressure,
My skull is caving in while my heart is exploding out of my chest,
All of this is in my head,
In my head,
And in my heart.
What do I do?
I don’t know what to do.
So much pain,
I’m caving in and exploding in the pressure all at once.
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What I Want.
I just want someone to make me feel beautiful,
To run their hands over my back and ribs and marvel at how tiny I am,
To look at my legs and tell me I’m the perfect size,
I want to feel exquisite and gorgeous and skinny,
I don’t want to feel the need to cake myself in make-up just to get this guy and that guy to notice me,
I want to have that one special someone who’s terrified to lose me,
I just want to feel special.
To run their hands over my back and ribs and marvel at how tiny I am,
To look at my legs and tell me I’m the perfect size,
I want to feel exquisite and gorgeous and skinny,
I don’t want to feel the need to cake myself in make-up just to get this guy and that guy to notice me,
I want to have that one special someone who’s terrified to lose me,
I just want to feel special.
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My Lover.
You guide me through the rift,
Killing my woes and soothing my fears,
You give me my path,
To walk and maim,
My path, my pain,
My lies and grief,
And should I lose my way,
The path you so carefully laid,
Guide me further through my pain,
To a place free of my lies and grief.
Killing my woes and soothing my fears,
You give me my path,
To walk and maim,
My path, my pain,
My lies and grief,
And should I lose my way,
The path you so carefully laid,
Guide me further through my pain,
To a place free of my lies and grief.
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I Was Wrong
I told myself I could get over you,
I was wrong,
I lost more than a partner,
I lost my best friend.
I miss you like crazy, I couldn't deny it even if I wanted to,
But I wanna be worth more than what you made me out to be.
I dream, and I miss you so much,
I need to stop this though,
This is unhealthy,
It's eating me away,
I'm dying inside,
In love with a memory.
A memory that hates me,
It's clawing the edges of the hole in my chest.
I gave you my heart and I don't want it back.
I didn't know how to use it until you...
I was wrong,
I lost more than a partner,
I lost my best friend.
I miss you like crazy, I couldn't deny it even if I wanted to,
But I wanna be worth more than what you made me out to be.
I dream, and I miss you so much,
I need to stop this though,
This is unhealthy,
It's eating me away,
I'm dying inside,
In love with a memory.
A memory that hates me,
It's clawing the edges of the hole in my chest.
I gave you my heart and I don't want it back.
I didn't know how to use it until you...
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Drained
Tears dripping,
Running down a weary, exhausted, devastated face,
Unstoppable, never ending,
Flowing, dripping, running, pouring,
Torrents of anger, self-pity, disgust,
Hate searing, burning,
Uncontrollable, unwanted,
Unbidden, unwelcome,
Emotions bubbling up from some long forgotten, over flowing crevice,
Memories best left alone,
Visiting and refusing to leave,
Dark, depressing thoughts,
Assumedly banished,
Causing tears to flow,
Stupid tears.
Running down a weary, exhausted, devastated face,
Unstoppable, never ending,
Flowing, dripping, running, pouring,
Torrents of anger, self-pity, disgust,
Hate searing, burning,
Uncontrollable, unwanted,
Unbidden, unwelcome,
Emotions bubbling up from some long forgotten, over flowing crevice,
Memories best left alone,
Visiting and refusing to leave,
Dark, depressing thoughts,
Assumedly banished,
Causing tears to flow,
Stupid tears.
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