Submissions by blackout (cecilia)

i pray that tonite be the night that i lose myself in lfe and break out of my box of sharp objects i pray that its all going to be okay..

im smiling but im dying inside ,its amazing how you can hide your emotions with a smile or a grin mabe even a giggle ,and yet i could hide every bit of pain without a doubt i can see the glare in your eyes as you slowly fade away...

im spending a lifetime trying to figure out who iam ,where i belong as i look into the mirror i see a girl with a bloody wrist and a gun in her hand ,alone she crys and trembles bannging her head against the wall trying to understand what she did wrong she wants to pull the trigger she wants someone to wake her up from this nightmare,this living hell she screams and crys but know on hears her desprate cries for help ... shes had enough she cant take it anymore the pressure,the pain and the hurt shes giving shes lost in her own mind shes threated by her own thoughts shes done she puts the gun...

the voice inside gets disturbed knowing that this love was never real ,that all you said is a lie i had a reason to love you lied to me ang you enjoyed wathching me bleed my heart hurts my thoughts are violent your gone and you wont come back...