she stares at her reflection in disgust , she hates what shes become she pokes at gut that she hates so much the voice in her head is telling her to get rid of it she looks at the thighs that make her cry and the arms that make her glare , she spends her nights hunched over a toilet disposing what ever she consumes the dry heaving hurts her chest she wont stop till she sees blood she gets up and takes her pills the voices are taunting her she works out for hours and refuses to eat she throws up on the rare times that she eats but its not enough she spends time looking at pro ana blogs she...
broken pieces of my heart like missing pieces of a puzzle the tiny fragments fall to the ground and shatter into a million pieces i lay in bed at night and wait for the sun to rise afraid , cold and shaken i look up at the winter night sky and wait for the sad becoming again , paralyzed i lay stricken with fear that you wont be there when the sun rises , as my chest tightens and the tears fall to the ground i watch you walk away into the winter night forever leaving me to kiss the sun good-bye
lying down upon my midnight slumber thinking,dreaming of those in wonder laughing,screaming crying come those of the darkest hour looking scearching for those whom are alone frightened and weary they come by two's three's and even fours wanting htose worthless weak soals they want to suck the life out of small itty bitty children alas there mothers and fathers tell them that the beast is only a myth and that our lord will save them,lies lies all lies!your children are not safe in this world of sorrow wickedness and dispair and yet you tell them to pray? i pray for the lord take ,but sadly we...
when i awake from my slumber its midnight my heart is pounding theres sweat pouring down im choking now i snap back to reality i lay paralized in my bed with tears pouring down my face and i know yes i know that sooner or later my world will come crashing down but truth be told im not ready too fight the day agian i open my mouth but the words wont come out i want to lose my mind all alone in the dark here its over now
im qivering i try too ignore should i ? could ? crouched over living in fear ovbious tears cant you see that the bleeding heart burst on my shirt time,withdraw hiding in the dark i cant seem too ignore the torn remorse hiding in the dark are you still there?
waking up at last from my slumber the clock takes my time away i run too catch up to time i had too fall to lose it all holding on too my narrow piece of reality will eventualy be a memory of when i lost it all
ill miss the winter .ill miss the moon and the damp earth beneth my feet .look for me in the full moon ,listen for my voice in the rain ill watch after you in your dreams dont be afraid ill be your angel in the darkest of nights ,you will hear me in the pain ,ill make you safe in your mind ill keep you safe under my black wings look for me when the wolf howls and the red moon rises look for my eyes in your tears listen for my voice when your being taunted by the voices that will end your life..
my thoughts are running through my head like a swarm of bees iv lost all feeling i want too stop breathing ,if everyone lies then everyone dies and no one survives in the air i can taste it all my dear hatred i watch everything fall i look too the sky and see the end of all creation i hear them screaming for forgiveness wishing ,begging screaming for forgiveness but they will never be heard because its judgement day you fools there is no reason too forgive you sick bastardes ! satan has returned ! hoorah hoorah! the beast has returnened iv lost all form of sanity i see them die i hear them...
i dont know whats worth fighting for or why i have to breathe my thoughts are fading away like smoke ,wait im falling apart agian i wish i would not say what i dont mean my mind is twirling around im spinning with my back agianst the door inside i realized that im the one confused ill never be alrite im banging on the walls cause im the one that falls i wish i had the clarity to show you what i mean before i self destruct tonite
your murder,your victim , her tourture ,her blood shed a shadow hiding in the night from the flame that cant be found.my angel ,your demon lurking for the power in the night my vengence,her prayer a life too leave behind better than a life of regret,my regrets your weapon im fighting your hurting im crying your screaming you wont ever see the side reflection i wont ever take your life if you promise too stay alive