Submissions by beautifullybrokenx
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
What have I become...? I'm stuck inside myself. I'm lost, I'm broken.... No, I lied. I'm stronger than ever.
Mother Mother
Bitch bitch bitch
That's all I hear.
That's all that comes out of her
mouth every time she talks.
Every vowel formed from it
irks every nerve in my body.
Every sound she makes is another
request,
Which really isn't a request.
It's a demand.
A demand that expects you to be
perfect.
But,
You'll never be perfect.
Every word that is spoken is a dagger
piercing through an already broken
heart wanting to be healed.
Every word is a reminder that
nothing you do will ever be good
enough.
Every
Damn
Word...
That's all I hear.
That's all that comes out of her
mouth every time she talks.
Every vowel formed from it
irks every nerve in my body.
Every sound she makes is another
request,
Which really isn't a request.
It's a demand.
A demand that expects you to be
perfect.
But,
You'll never be perfect.
Every word that is spoken is a dagger
piercing through an already broken
heart wanting to be healed.
Every word is a reminder that
nothing you do will ever be good
enough.
Every
Damn
Word...
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Broken
I sit and stare
forward.
Trying to look at
nothing.
I don't want to
see
whats right in front
of me.
I don't want to see
his
limp body laying there
lifeless.
I am shaking
uncontrollably.
I have no idea what to
do.
I don't know how to help
him.
I just don't know how to save
him.
His beautiful body lies
there,
but his soul is so far
away.
My best friend.
My lover.
The keeper of my heart.
The heart of mine which is broken. ...
forward.
Trying to look at
nothing.
I don't want to
see
whats right in front
of me.
I don't want to see
his
limp body laying there
lifeless.
I am shaking
uncontrollably.
I have no idea what to
do.
I don't know how to help
him.
I just don't know how to save
him.
His beautiful body lies
there,
but his soul is so far
away.
My best friend.
My lover.
The keeper of my heart.
The heart of mine which is broken. ...
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Want
Reasons to live
1-............
But then he tells me.
1. You are beautiful.
2. You mean the world to me.
3. You are perfect.
4. I can't live without you.
5. You're everything I could ever ask for.
He changes his mind.
1. I am disgusting.
2. You're a piece of shit.
3. I'm nasty and vile.
4. I want you dead. So I will kill you.
5. You're the opposite of what I want.
Again and again,
I deal with distortions.
He loves me, he hates me.
He needs to pick.
I'm broken,
I'm hurting..
I feel like all it'll...
1-............
But then he tells me.
1. You are beautiful.
2. You mean the world to me.
3. You are perfect.
4. I can't live without you.
5. You're everything I could ever ask for.
He changes his mind.
1. I am disgusting.
2. You're a piece of shit.
3. I'm nasty and vile.
4. I want you dead. So I will kill you.
5. You're the opposite of what I want.
Again and again,
I deal with distortions.
He loves me, he hates me.
He needs to pick.
I'm broken,
I'm hurting..
I feel like all it'll...
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My World.
I sit back and watch it all happen.
My world is falling apart..
My friends, all forgotten.
The only thing I have left is him.
He loves me one second,
and I'm filth another.
He hits me and breaks me,
then we make love.
He pushes me into corners,
and kicks me until I'm black and blue.
He kisses my bruises,
saying, "How could I do this to you??"
I love.
I hate.
What do I feel?
I do not know...
For the emotions have all left me.
I am nothing.
I am nothin.
I am nothi.
I...
My world is falling apart..
My friends, all forgotten.
The only thing I have left is him.
He loves me one second,
and I'm filth another.
He hits me and breaks me,
then we make love.
He pushes me into corners,
and kicks me until I'm black and blue.
He kisses my bruises,
saying, "How could I do this to you??"
I love.
I hate.
What do I feel?
I do not know...
For the emotions have all left me.
I am nothing.
I am nothin.
I am nothi.
I...
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A Single Tear
I retreat slowly,
gently, full of anger,
back to the car.
I rewind myself,
and watch as cars follow unhurriedly,
mournfully, full of sorrow.
The cars regress,
back to their individual spaces.
Jumping out of their cars, I see people.
I back up slowly,
into the place I despise the most.
The place of final rest.
I plop down,
down into my horrid wooden chair.
The chair so many mourning people have sat.
I'm directly behind my best friend.
I love him. I do.
As it advances on,
a tear falls back in.
gently, full of anger,
back to the car.
I rewind myself,
and watch as cars follow unhurriedly,
mournfully, full of sorrow.
The cars regress,
back to their individual spaces.
Jumping out of their cars, I see people.
I back up slowly,
into the place I despise the most.
The place of final rest.
I plop down,
down into my horrid wooden chair.
The chair so many mourning people have sat.
I'm directly behind my best friend.
I love him. I do.
As it advances on,
a tear falls back in.
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Stronger
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Shadows
I stand behind you,
And you only catch a glimpse.
I come with the sun,
And leave with it too.
I bring the hint of being,
Showing that you are oh so alive.
I bring about memories,
From so long ago.
You play with me,
And sometimes, I am the only real thing left.
And you only catch a glimpse.
I come with the sun,
And leave with it too.
I bring the hint of being,
Showing that you are oh so alive.
I bring about memories,
From so long ago.
You play with me,
And sometimes, I am the only real thing left.
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Dear Missing Friends
Kristina Paul... my aunt... heart attack & drowning... 2005
Angelica Baker... my friend from all the way back when... hung herself... 2007
Peter Wing... my grandfather whom I have never met... skin cancer... 1976
Javaun McDonald... kid I heard a lot about... hung from a tree... 2007
Charles Wing... my great uncle... just being the old man he was... 2003
Justin Longoria... my absolute best friend... first time I met him, he smashed a can with his head, and almost got run over by a car, never going to forget his smile, and comforting hugs... drug...
Angelica Baker... my friend from all the way back when... hung herself... 2007
Peter Wing... my grandfather whom I have never met... skin cancer... 1976
Javaun McDonald... kid I heard a lot about... hung from a tree... 2007
Charles Wing... my great uncle... just being the old man he was... 2003
Justin Longoria... my absolute best friend... first time I met him, he smashed a can with his head, and almost got run over by a car, never going to forget his smile, and comforting hugs... drug...
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Memories of You
As I retrace memories of you in my mind I'll feel the warmth and a smile I'll find Our love was as vast as an infinant sea Our lives were careless and fancy free We experienced together many beautiful things And in my heart they'll always cling We shared many good times, that can't be denied We even had bad ones, where we both cried. We seemed to grow closer in our trying times And everything would always work out just fine. It's really too bad that we didn't stay together Because with you I would have liked to spent my life. I feel a great loss now that we're apart, For you are most...
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Your First Kiss
Twisting your intestines Was the least of my intentions Broken hearted and in pain I do this in pure vain Loving every moment of your screams. Ha! You could only wish this were in your dreams. No, I haven't done anything quite yet, Just wait 'til the sun has set. Come on, keep on shouting! Awh, really, your pouting? Mmm, the sun set is beginning. It's time to start my new upbringing. A little slash here, and another there. Don't look so sad. This truly isn't that bad. I'm only going to kill you. Slowly, quite painfully too. Now, let us begin. Hand me that singe Let me stick it in your pretty...
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Daddy's Little Girl
"Daddy, no, please!" "Oh, quit being such a little tease!" Hearing sounds of breaking bones, Seems to really set the tone. "Being Daddy's little girl, Makes the world want to hurl. No one able to hear your scream, is Daddy's little dream. No one will ever believe it to be true, I've lost one too many screws!" "Daddy, please, stop!" "Shut up before I give your arm a little chop! Scream a little louder! Make Daddy even prouder!" "I won't kill you this time, my little baby. But next time, just maybe."
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Where I'm At
I'm in a world I don't understand, I'm cold and alone. I don't know where I'm at. Everything is closing in on me. Everyone keeps asking, "Are you okay?" I fake a smile in agree. But in truth, I'm dying On the outside I'm only crying. For you'll never know, what I've done, Behind these cold hard doors. My screaming and pleading. The bleeding. The broken promises and the lies. All when you said that small little "Hi." I never thought it woud feel so good, To see my blood overflood. When I look at myself in the mirror, I see the person who allowed herself to be broken. From everything you've...
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